Snoop, I know it's a difficult journey for you and healing is the goal. With that in mind, I feel we have offered all of the paranormal insight we can as to what you experienced. As we are a paranormal forum, that is as much as we are allowed to offer you as we are not qualified to offer therapeutic advice. I would urge you to seek out a qualified therapist who can help you through that process. We shall keep you in prayer and thoughts and hope you find the answers you seek.Well my life has become rather rudderless at the moment. i was doing a lot of soul searching over the passed few weeks. thinking about what I want and how to get it. dealing with crap from the past helped me understand what is blocking me now.
If you need to discuss further, please feel free to private message me. Meanwhile, I am closing the thread to further discussion so we do not impede your process with incorrect guidance.