That is a long hard road you travel Jo. I'm sorry to hear about your mom .I am going through similar things here. Remember to always except help when its offered and take time for you when you can .Strength ,and healing prayers on the way .My grandfather, Poppy, died of a heart attack and died in his sleep. I found him the next morning on the floor next to his bed, with his left arm stretched out.
Two years later, he came one night, stood at the end of my bed, and said: "Take care of your mother".
That same year, my father joined an International Organization and we left the country.
Now, I have not had the best of a relationship with my mom. She kept a couple of my secrets hostage, threatening to share with my Dad for many years, until I sobered up and started our relationship in 1999.
Alzheimer's started the long goodbye in 2007;
Now I am only family here, she thinks I am her sister, it's always Sunday and so on.
I follow Poppy's message to this day.
I am glad you had a chance to see your loved ones again Debi.Many of us are open to dream visitations from loved ones. I'm one of them.
Last week I had a lovely visitation from family members. It had been a difficult week, I was searching for some answers, and asked for those answers. I rarely nap, but that day I just couldn't keep my head up any more so I took an afternoon off from the forum to sleep.
My dream was vivid, and totally lucid. I had family members stop by to deliver those answers and it was lovely to see them again. Although they didn't hand me solutions on a platter, they were able to direct me to resources that would be helpful in finding those answers in full, should I desire to do the footwork in waking life.
Ever have dreamstate visitors?
That can be great news if a doctor can treat an illness sooner and maybe save a life .It can be a drag to be thought of a bearer of bad news but its all for the greater good .You were given a great gift Mokey .My aunt comes to me about illnesses in the family. It's always nice to see her but wish she'd also bring some good news.