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just adding one more note before i go to sleep and worry about it.
i have a cemetery behind my house which i’ve never been to before and for some reason i have this urge that i can’t ignore to go there. something is pulling me up there and i don’t know whether i should listen to it or not.
also thought i should note this down; i left coins on my windowsill last night because i was counting them, and i woke up this morning and they were gone? they’d completely disappeared. don’t think this is significant but i wanted to write it down for myself.
anyway thank you everyone for your help with my questions. i’m extremely grateful.
Concerning the cemetary, I'd like to say that basically, a cemetary isn't something to be afraid of, but of course, it'd be based on my own culture's perspectives.
I do understand however, that some cemetaries can be scary. It'd be something 'normal' if a cemetary became a scary place if it's an old one that nobody ever frequented anymore-or, a cemetary with something like a very old tree or well in it, because you can be sure there'll always be something there that doesn't want you to enter the cemetary just like that as you like, even during the day.
In your case, I don't know what kind of cemetary you have there behind your house. I will ask you this however, do you have any passed away relatives buried there? If you do, then the urge may come from them, since just maybe, they feel empty, if you know what I mean; they wanted to see family members gather on their grave and pray for them, they missed you because maybe nobody from the family ever came in a very long time. If this is the case, I think there's nothing wrong for you to come to their grave and offer them prayers if you can.
Even if you don't have any relatives buried there, you can always offer them who rest there prayers to calm their restless soul down, because there's a possibility that some of them there are not capabale of moving on to their realm and became earth bound spirits. In this case, maybe they're the ones who's calling you out, because they can feel that you have what it takes to comfort them. Like moths flocking to the light bulb, remember?
You know, for earth bound spirits, it'd be a great help if there's a person who's willingly offer them a sincere prayer, even if the prayer can't really take them to cross to their rightful realm.They'll be grateful, they'll be cry in happiness, and they'll never forget it until the end of time.
I've witnessed my master helped earth bound spirits to perfect their resting state (that's in our terms, in yours, it would be 'helping them to cross the light'), so I know that all earth bound spirits are actually suffering a great deal of torment due to their inability of moving on to the next world (and in some cases, it wasn't even their fault-the realization adds to the burden they must carry), and a sincere prayer for them would be stopping the pain they feel for as long as the prayer is being chanted, maybe for 3 or 5 minutes.
And maybe, for us 5 minutes sounds like insignificant compared to the torment they've been trying and still have to endure like to no end. But still, having the torment stopped even only for short 5 minutes is like finding a true oasis in the middle of the very hot desert for them so to say. 5 minutes is long enough for a thirsty person to drink in the oasis as much as he can take until he can't take it anymore. That's how precious a sincere prayer for them is going to be like.
If this is the case, a prayer there in the cemetary, once in every month will be enough to stop the urge for you. But I won't suggest you to just go in there however, not if you don't have any protection with you. Not because I'm doubting the call for help-there's always be call for help from every cemetary to think of it. But something else can also trying to lure you to go to the cemetary for whatever reason, mostly to attach themselves to you. It's not going to be funny for you if this is the case.
Best thing I can suggest if you want to try to offer them a prayer anyway, is by doing it right from the outside of the cemetary fence/gate.
You know, if you want to learn your way around this kind of spirituality-I mean paranormal spirituality, the first thing you should properly learn is mental shielding. A shield can both protect you from paranormal attack, and it can also filter unecessary or false informations you received (i.e. false urge, false whispers, false sounds, etc). To train shielding also means to sharpen your mental senses so it's not going to be easy for 'them' to trick you off. A mental radar, if you will. The stronger you are mentally, the better the shield works as filter; you'll still feel the urge, you'll sill hear the wispers and sounds, but you can easily shrugged it off if it wasn't something important. You'll just know it instantly.
As to your lost coins... Have you found them? If not, just let it go. Just look at things in positive way, let's just say there was something in your house took interest on those coins and decided to keep them as souvenir. Sounds funny maybe, but it's just an effort to keep your mind at ease, don't take small things seriously when it comes down to paranormal, because if you do, sooner or later you'll find that the whole paranormal thing can actually be very depressing. Believe me you don't want it.
To be able to maintain a positive way of thinking in this kind of matter is the biggest part in maintaining protection against paranormal, btw
Speaking of protection, you said you keep waking up at 02.11 am, and feeling icy cold in yor forearms and found an indent on the edge of or bed... Icy cold on your forearms may be a sign that you're taking things a bit too seriously and thus it burdened your mind, I've been there, done that (I've felt the cold not just in my arms, but the entire body), so maybe I know about it. Are you okay?
As to the indent, there could be something sat there with the motives unknown. Again, it could be the result of your burdened mind emitted certain signal that attracted one of them to come closer to you when you were sleeping.
But again, don't take it too seriously even at this level, unless you've felt something more annoying, like things dropped off from your table, or your bed shaking while there were no earthquake or other things that might caused earth in your area to shake or vibrate. Take it in positive way; something woke you up, to tell you to pray for your own protection before you sleep at night. So maybe it could have been your spirit guardian all along.
And ah yes, I forgot something; concerning the figures you saw (in the cemetary, I believe?) that disappeared as soon as you blink, just take it easy. I this kind of thing, if they have something to tell you, they've came to you already, not just making unclear sightings. Most likely the one(s) you saw and behaved like that were just tricksters. As well with the figures you saw in your room.
As for the breaking electronic devices and made the light flickering, it's not because they hate you
Most likely, it's because energy collition, between your own energy against some negative energies around you. Energy collisions may sometimes create static electric-like effect on things near you. A proper shielding can help to reduce the effect for the device you come in contact with. Internally, energy collisions may cause strange diziness, nausea, restlessness, nightmare, etc.
Well, that's all to it about my opinions on you case for now. If I missed something or there's anything else you'd like to ask, please don't be hesitate to ask.
I'm sorry if you find typos in my reply here because English isn't my native language, and tbh, my keyboard is currently a bit of acting up on me.
Regards,
MaCan