yep, kinda like the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other, each influencing your next choice. our choices have to be made with the thoughts of how will this effect the progression of what is???..... which side will it strengthen.???... how will it effect not just tomorrow or next week but years later, and not just yourself but those around you. self examination, desire, actions, are hard to accomplish on an honest level. being misled it seems is always the easiest road, the more enticing, etc... I know im not perfect, not even close, i deffinately have my moments and that inner self whos advice is best ignored, but by admitting this to myself and keeping "that guy" pushed back and dormant unless needed is at least a start to betterment......(but sometimes hes just soooo dang fun, a pretty funny guy too)....lol