I understood quite well. Thank you very much, Walkinanteek & everyone.Exactly, Selectric, you explained it much better than I did.
I live now right in - a lovely Montana western mountain-valley. I can, with my somewhat broken emotional state, lol, walk in the air of this beautiful place.
I sensed something today. That my Irish background is there, so I will be listening. I have other ancestors too. I know now there are loving prople (passed on, but they're still people right?) who have been urging me to get back to my own life. So, another adventure now begins, even though I am kind of old. lol.
Cheers all.
<3