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First, and again, in this repetitive time/circumstance from hell loop I seem to be stuck in, I apologize for disappearing 'again' after sincerely saying "not gonna happen"....
Normally, I would seek out a private conversation with Debi in this situation when I win the ability to manuver back to Debi's House - but this time I have decided to post openly to speak of this ever evolving wtf I have been battling now for months and months... for two reasons. First, it is unexpected (as in not ordinary behavior in the mattter) in hopes that any change up is a good thing, uncharacteristic maybe better... and next, because of the wide diversity of those who are regulars here - both in Spiritual Paths and far-reaching knowledge/Wisdoms.
I don't know whether to post this in Paranormal Experience's - which it most certainly is - or Spirituality... which is the end-game I think... so I'm just spinning the wheel and letting it land where it falls.
It would take day's... weeks... months... YEARS... to go from point A to now so that's out; So I will start at the 'end-game' which without a single doubt - I am sure... is the point I am standing on now.
I will do my best to make sense.
Like many of you, I have lived my whole life Walking in two worlds and most of that Walk has not been pleasant. But, ya know, where there is great darkness there is also great Light... and my Spirit has grown strong, my Faith stronger... throughout the years.
Then, starting last March/April - just about the time of that dam*ed magnetic wave thing - things got hmmmm 'tilted'... or hmmmm 'distorted' oh I don't know - just 'wrong'.
Debi knows some of this, but the thing in a nut shell is... I have been under constant attack... physically, mentally, emotional, and Spiritually since that time, by an enemy I can NOT discern (see, hear, feel, smell, sense) and in which nothing... and I mean nothing... in my experience or arsenal (neither of which is small by any means) has any affect. At All.
The sole purpose of this relentless onslaught (and I have been wrong a whole bunch of times to this point) seems to simple be... to wear me down... literally and figuratively - but for what reason??? I can only think either - it or they or whatever want me dead. OR it or they or whatever want me to rescind my Faith... then die (for I surely would).
Whatever or whoever, is orchestrating this madness - it not only affects me, but the land around me... not to mention my animals and God knows, the little cabin... I think I'm stuck in a Steven King novel.
I have very few 'solids' in all this - but I decided to come here with what I do have and throw it out to see if anything strikes any of you as familiar.
(1) It drinks (or absorbs) Light. Literally. I am running 100 watt LEDS and in the daytime with all shades up in full sunlight - you can literally witness the light dimming. Not like electrical draw - like a fri**en sponge soaking it up. This happens inside and out.
(2) Some sort of surges - or emittance (whatever) that pulse... and when they get full out, every joint in your body aches like an exposed nerve in a tooth... IF you have an injury it ram's that pain up to about a thousand. Like I said, it comes in waves or pulses... no discernable pattern or time or day or whatever.
(3) (and this one has developed over time so it took me a while) Glass. Glass shatters. Shattered glass. Alot. Whether it is someone throwing something glass, or glass getting knocked or dropped (both obvious but see... that is not the whole of it) - 2 weeks ago the picture window in the kitchen shattered, a Cross made of glass that was on a table in the bedroom (empty bedroom) hit the beedroom wall with such force that it left an imprint on the wall and pulverized it so completely into tiny shards that it looked like dust coming from under the door (which was closed) - before that, a box of old christmas bulbs I had stored under the bed exploded, a candle holder (complete with candle which was burning) flew off the the ledge that marks the opening between the living room and kitchen, threw wax everywhere and shattered (on carpet) and so on... (it seems to stay clear of appliances or electronics like the TV or Microwave etc...) so, the thing either hates glass or what??? But tiny slivers of broken glass are everywhere no matter how often I sweep or vacumn or clean or tape or pitch or or or. I am down to 2 drinking glasses.
(4) It is heavy - physically, like a boulder on your shoulders... emotionally, a heavy despondency... mentally, a block of granite to your thinking process --- and Spiritually, like being entombed... forsaken... hopeless.
(5) It slinks in slowly, like oozing mud - it doesn't attack until it's got it's base's covered... so one minute your la la la'ing and all of a sudden it's on. I think it would like to be considered instantaneous, but I don't think so. I think it spends time 'building' and is very good at staying in the shadows, gathering energy or mutating or solidifying or becoming or whatever - before it says 'Boo'. Once it starts its full force and it might go on for hours or days but its here and its comfortable. It doesn't slink out. It is just gone. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the pressure/heaviness is gone - but the after effects linger while you wonder when you went insane and why you aren't all of a sudden. I can tell ya I have some major PTSD... but trying to wait it out or prepare or find a pattern is useless.
I've thrown everything I've got at it/this/they whatever guys ... I've used weapon's that laid some dark DARK stuff down. I've Called upon The Guardians and Warriors of Light, I've Called upon The Creator... I don't think I'm being ignored - I think I am either being 'blocked/misconnected' or or or... I feel like (I sincerely HOPE) I am missing something I either never learned or have forgotten. 'sigh'
Okay folks... any and all opinions, thoughts, or idea's are welcome. And a prayer or two wouldn't hurt either. And I don't ask lightly.
Normally, I would seek out a private conversation with Debi in this situation when I win the ability to manuver back to Debi's House - but this time I have decided to post openly to speak of this ever evolving wtf I have been battling now for months and months... for two reasons. First, it is unexpected (as in not ordinary behavior in the mattter) in hopes that any change up is a good thing, uncharacteristic maybe better... and next, because of the wide diversity of those who are regulars here - both in Spiritual Paths and far-reaching knowledge/Wisdoms.
I don't know whether to post this in Paranormal Experience's - which it most certainly is - or Spirituality... which is the end-game I think... so I'm just spinning the wheel and letting it land where it falls.
It would take day's... weeks... months... YEARS... to go from point A to now so that's out; So I will start at the 'end-game' which without a single doubt - I am sure... is the point I am standing on now.
I will do my best to make sense.
Like many of you, I have lived my whole life Walking in two worlds and most of that Walk has not been pleasant. But, ya know, where there is great darkness there is also great Light... and my Spirit has grown strong, my Faith stronger... throughout the years.
Then, starting last March/April - just about the time of that dam*ed magnetic wave thing - things got hmmmm 'tilted'... or hmmmm 'distorted' oh I don't know - just 'wrong'.
Debi knows some of this, but the thing in a nut shell is... I have been under constant attack... physically, mentally, emotional, and Spiritually since that time, by an enemy I can NOT discern (see, hear, feel, smell, sense) and in which nothing... and I mean nothing... in my experience or arsenal (neither of which is small by any means) has any affect. At All.
The sole purpose of this relentless onslaught (and I have been wrong a whole bunch of times to this point) seems to simple be... to wear me down... literally and figuratively - but for what reason??? I can only think either - it or they or whatever want me dead. OR it or they or whatever want me to rescind my Faith... then die (for I surely would).
Whatever or whoever, is orchestrating this madness - it not only affects me, but the land around me... not to mention my animals and God knows, the little cabin... I think I'm stuck in a Steven King novel.
I have very few 'solids' in all this - but I decided to come here with what I do have and throw it out to see if anything strikes any of you as familiar.
(1) It drinks (or absorbs) Light. Literally. I am running 100 watt LEDS and in the daytime with all shades up in full sunlight - you can literally witness the light dimming. Not like electrical draw - like a fri**en sponge soaking it up. This happens inside and out.
(2) Some sort of surges - or emittance (whatever) that pulse... and when they get full out, every joint in your body aches like an exposed nerve in a tooth... IF you have an injury it ram's that pain up to about a thousand. Like I said, it comes in waves or pulses... no discernable pattern or time or day or whatever.
(3) (and this one has developed over time so it took me a while) Glass. Glass shatters. Shattered glass. Alot. Whether it is someone throwing something glass, or glass getting knocked or dropped (both obvious but see... that is not the whole of it) - 2 weeks ago the picture window in the kitchen shattered, a Cross made of glass that was on a table in the bedroom (empty bedroom) hit the beedroom wall with such force that it left an imprint on the wall and pulverized it so completely into tiny shards that it looked like dust coming from under the door (which was closed) - before that, a box of old christmas bulbs I had stored under the bed exploded, a candle holder (complete with candle which was burning) flew off the the ledge that marks the opening between the living room and kitchen, threw wax everywhere and shattered (on carpet) and so on... (it seems to stay clear of appliances or electronics like the TV or Microwave etc...) so, the thing either hates glass or what??? But tiny slivers of broken glass are everywhere no matter how often I sweep or vacumn or clean or tape or pitch or or or. I am down to 2 drinking glasses.
(4) It is heavy - physically, like a boulder on your shoulders... emotionally, a heavy despondency... mentally, a block of granite to your thinking process --- and Spiritually, like being entombed... forsaken... hopeless.
(5) It slinks in slowly, like oozing mud - it doesn't attack until it's got it's base's covered... so one minute your la la la'ing and all of a sudden it's on. I think it would like to be considered instantaneous, but I don't think so. I think it spends time 'building' and is very good at staying in the shadows, gathering energy or mutating or solidifying or becoming or whatever - before it says 'Boo'. Once it starts its full force and it might go on for hours or days but its here and its comfortable. It doesn't slink out. It is just gone. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the pressure/heaviness is gone - but the after effects linger while you wonder when you went insane and why you aren't all of a sudden. I can tell ya I have some major PTSD... but trying to wait it out or prepare or find a pattern is useless.
I've thrown everything I've got at it/this/they whatever guys ... I've used weapon's that laid some dark DARK stuff down. I've Called upon The Guardians and Warriors of Light, I've Called upon The Creator... I don't think I'm being ignored - I think I am either being 'blocked/misconnected' or or or... I feel like (I sincerely HOPE) I am missing something I either never learned or have forgotten. 'sigh'
Okay folks... any and all opinions, thoughts, or idea's are welcome. And a prayer or two wouldn't hurt either. And I don't ask lightly.