Yeah... ummm... no. Welcome to Debi's House Pale Heathen. I am not here often but it's Christmas. So while I'm here
None of what you said make's sense to me.
What you are saying here, in my opinion, is that you understood negative or dark energy and it never bothered you. Rather it made you feel "tranquil" and "calm". Fear came when you felt you had lost control of the "whatever" and it might cause trouble.
It is not hard for any human being with a wit of consciousness to sense hate, anger, jealousy etc. Negative emotions. That's because energy is a WAVE and negative energy is pretty clear to a human - just like positive energy waves from a smile, laughter, happiness etc. The inky thing is not natural or normal or anything at all I have heard of before so it is what you manifest it to be. The demon thing, well... if you don't want them don't call them and even if you do call them what makes you think they would rush to your side and if they did, what are you going to do with them? What's the plan? It's not personal... I ask a LOT of "demon caller's/summoner's and such the question.
Everyone here so far has offered you the same message. Don't. Or if you do, don't come here. I will go a step further... if you willingly walked in the "dark art door" it may not be as easy to walk out it. However, dark art and bs dark art are very different. Now me, I would always avert my eyes from what I THOUGHT was a list of demonic names... because, well, it's supposedly demonic names. I AM knowledgeable enough to know that those who can ACTUALLY summon demons aren't publishing books about it. But, I always err on the side of caution. Same with "incantations" - An Incantation is not THE WORDS - it's the Vibration. But, again - err toward caution.
I think you have a whole lot of misconceptions and this is not the place to come for information. Debi's House has more than a few demon smiter's on hand. They also, err on the side of caution.