January will be 11 years since the very traumatic separation, divorce, loss of 3 kids, and incarceration for 6 months( 1st EVER going to jail).
A very well premeditated plan by the ex and the boyfriend
Upon release all I had was my truck and a bag of clothes. Mentally I was a train wreck. I drank heavily, literally woke up drunk and went to bed drunk. For 6 years I wandered the country( lost the truck 5 months in), no care for anything, put myself in dangerous situations. Almost died several times. During this process I lost my Grandmother who raised me since I was 3, I returned home and helped her transition. 6 months
I was drinking myself to death. Then one night "Leaving Las Vegas" came on.
I've seen it a few times before, this time it woke something in me. The following day a resolved to fix myself, knowing it would probably take years if not the rest of my life.
Through this time, especially after Vegas, the mental pain and anguish and the physical did lessen. Now I am in a MUCH better place, in my head and in life.
I was on the right road and the Universe gave me a gift to increase my resolve.
My baby girl Gyda
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The scars will always be there, from time to time a memory wave hits. I accept it will never go away and it is a part of who I am.
So imo, Time does heal, idk about completely, however if done correctly time will ease the pain