When I was fourteen (and fortean)

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  1. Benway

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    1991, seven years after that weird experience I had I was a teenager, at really really big school and now preoccupied with paranoia about being unpopular and the certain knowledge that no girl would ever like me. And UFOs, obviously!

    One Sunday autumn night I, for reasons I can't recall, had decided to go to bed at 7PM. This made no sense then or now. I've always been a night owl (or I'd never get to talk to any of you!) and this was odd. I could understand if I decided to go to bed by nine to get up really early, but seven? At that time other kids from school were hanging out at the half arsed church hall youth club at the end of my street (same church as the maybe moving but maybe not statue, for fans of continuity), but I was lying not at all tired in my bed in the same room I'd been not at all tired in seven years earlier and seven years after I was born.

    The room still had the same wallpaper and it had worn well as I didn't smoke as a child, but a couple of important things had changed. Gone were the Superman curtains! There were no black costume Spider-man curtains then or now and so they had been replaced by red plastic slatted blinds. The bed from before had now been replaced by a Captain's Bed! They were a fad; a bed on top of a wardrobe and desk with a ladder to get up to it. Cool though and actually relevant to the story, before everyone gives up reading!

    In any case at a little after seven I was lying in bed while my parents were watching TV and my little brother was hanging around in his room next door not in bed, like a normal kid and after a while my mind wandered back to seven years ago and in particular how terrifying it had been and then I began to get more and more anxious and then afraid and then terrified again. A blinding blue/white light blasted through the blinds.

    Then neon red, then neon green (or maybe the reverse; I can't remember, but it was a red blue green cycle). I can't really describe how terrified I was. I'd desperately wanted to meet 'them' again but the fear was divorced from anything that was happening and was a primal terror that was by far the major part of the experience. It's not a reaction to the events, it's it's own thing! The first time I'd been lying facing the window and couldn't look away, but now I was across the room at a higher angle and could hide and I did! I buried myself under the quilt, hating myself for doing it.

    But the greatest regret of my life was that I'd wasted the previous experience and never tried to talk to it and I forced myself to look.

    Behind the blind were three spheres about the size of basketballs red, blue and green revolving around each other in a regular pattern with each moving between the others in turn. I plunged back under the quilt and fought myself. Again, I can't stress enough the primal terror!

    I couldn't live with myself if I gave up. I had to confront them. I pushed against every instinct and sense. I couldn't properly control myself and forced myself out of bed by just pushing... and wrapped in quilt fell down the ladder into a pile of bedding on the floor. The spell broken I was furious at the delay and fought free of the quilt and lunged for the window, pulling the blind and...

    Nothing. It had gone.
     
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    By the way, are these occurrences recurring on a regular basis - does the next one happen at age 21?

    From your actions described here, I’d say that you were braver at 14 then I was at 49. Nice to hear that you forced yourself to look into the object of your fear.

    I think you described that the fear, though appearing to be triggered by the incident, was also a separate thing. Can you elaborate further?

    Because you didn’t make much of a statement on same, I’m assuming you did not experience the same kind of wind or physical turmoil during this later incident like what you described during your age 7 event?

    Did any of your family volunteer they experienced anything that same night?
     
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    Good questions Wands
     
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    In order, yes. Twenty one is going to be a long post.

    Thankyou! I wasn't at all brave usually. I was scared of pretty much everyone and everything but this was important and I felt like I wasted too much time hiding! I did fight it, but too late to find out anything and after this I suspected that it was going to be another seven years before I got another shot!

    The fear is really important. In cause and effect the cause precedes the effect, but the overwhelming fear happened first both times and had nothing to do with what was happening from my perspective. Although I was scared of real world things, seeing a robed figure at my window or having a close encounter with revolving globes should have caused a reaction of "wow, this is cool! I want to know more", rather than fear. The fear was first and crippling. I have two different explanations.
    1) Some interaction between some technology being used which caused that or else an actual weapon used to keep people from acting
    2) Prayer, ritual magic and other things revolve around accessing different states of mind to connect to other unseen parts of reality and total terror is a quick and dirty shortcut to being able to perceive certain things. That raises the question of entities who can effectively manifest themselves in at least some areas by evoking the correct state of mind!
    Thoughts?

    In the case when I was seven, I was facing the window quite low down so the howling wind like effect was impossible to miss, but this time I was across the room and mostly hiding so I just got the lights. I can't tell what else was happening. Again, I was really annoyed with myself for taking so long to fight back!

    This time I questioned all of my family, and not only that but also everyone at the youth club down the road and other locals as I got the chance to talk to them. My amateur investigator thing didn't get me made fun of! Nobody saw anything though. (I ruled out some game attempts as just planes). Definitely not a physical happening it seems.

    Looking at all of this again the thing that really stands out is why I was lying in bed at 7pm for no reason.
     
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    Props up to 14 year old you for actively Sherlock Holmes-ing your family and neighborhood for additional inputs.

    By the way, your writing style made it easy to suspect something was going to happen seven years later at age 21. Not to be a snot about it but I used the age of 49 in my comparative response because it too is a multiple of seven.

    I got it now - the fear thing - you felt the fear before the visuals started. It’s worth pointing out for full disclosure that especially strong emotions (including terror) can cause our conscious minds to see or imply dangerous events where none exist. I am not implying that moving lighted orbs are a common occurrence of course or not something to become fearful of if you see them. And to those who are familiar with witchcraft or energy manipulation, in both instances, our intents can make things manifest; things that didn’t exist previously can be created into reality. Two plus two could mean that your extreme fear might have caused the orbs to manifest. Just one far reaching idea.

    In your narrative, it seems you were in bed for a short time before the fear started and the orbs appeared. So going to bed at 7PM could mean any number of things but focusing on the specifics you shared, it might imply foreknowledge of the coming event or the fear. As you indicated, it could even be something directed at you. Based on my psi experience, I believe that you could have felt someone’s negative feelings or intents; also possible those intents might have been directed at you, your home, or another family member. Two related questions:
    A. In your sleuthing, did you learn anything at all about how your family was feeling around that time? I ask because your feelings of fear might have been perceptions of someone elses’ fear rather than your own.
    B. Were you aware of any enemies who were very familiar with your interests and family life (UFOs, religious iconography, cousins, etc.)?
     
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    Thanks!
    I did write it in such a way as to forshadow the next event. I'm a frustrated fiction writer and some habits are hard to shake off! Glad you picked up on it. I missed your own multiple of 7! Damnit! I love that kind of detail! It's appreciated now though and I'll be sure to pay attention in future... :) I think it's because 21 was the end for reasons I'll get into, but 42 is coming up in a less than two years and I've been planning a reunion visit to the area, so other numbers are sort of washed out. Perhaps that should bother me, but I do like Douglas Adams.

    It's true that that level of fear could have triggered a hallucination, but I have no explanation for the fear itself. I think that it's the physical mechanism by which this happened, but beyond that I think there's something else to it.

    Forknowledge perhaps, but I lean towards an outside influence, due to repeat performances at regular intervals and a later incident. My family had no enemies of that kind and we've been quite open about such things since I grew up. There was an incident when I was a kid where some guy threatened my dad with a "Do you know who I am?" He terrified my babysitter and claimed to be a powerful warlock. My dad threatened to punch him in the face if he didn't bugger off. Nothing happened and it doesn't line up with these events. The impression is that he was an idiot who dabbled. Anyway, if I was told that and my folks' other weird stories, I'd know if anything like that was going on, so I don't think it was anyone who knew us. As for other fear, there was some trouble at home, but both things happened during times of peace with no fights or stress. I think the fear was artificially induced somehow to allow me to see things. No proof obviously, so other ideas welcome.
     
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    This event had a profound effect on me. I was already predisposed to believe that we were being visited by extraterrestrial beings in spaceships and to attribute everything to them and this experience made me one of the few who knew 'the truth'! Shortly afterwards at school we were handed an assignment by 'the government' to test some education idea out. We would all do a project over a few months on a subject of our choice and it would be sent off to be evaluated for reasons. It was the man and I was going to bite the hand that handed out assignments! My project: The government is covering up alien contact. And so I became teen Fox Mulder with my partner Chris who was ... also Fox Mulder. Chris had made the acquaintance of a scientist investigating crop circles (of which we were having a lot) and I was stepping up my reading and attempting to collate everything into a unified history of extraterrestrial activity on Earth since it started in the 40s. I was sure we'd get the answers and after a short while I found accounts of the same arrangement of red blue and green spheres being seen, confirming what I already knew. Aliens were real and here!


    The observant observer may notice some glaring leaps of logic and problems in all this, but not me at that time! I remained a die hard believer in the extraterrestrial hypothesis for years based on essentially no evidence before I read books which made me start to question things. I was far smarter when I was seven! Seven year old me knew he didn't know much and so questioned everything. Fourteen year old me 'knew' about the conspiracy and so anything that supported it had to be true as it was in opposition to a lie.

    Eventually, after years, I began to find holes. Reports of Men in Black who clearly weren't spooks shutting people up, but something stranger, the extradimensional hypothesis and stories that just didn't fit in with aliens visiting Earth. The obvious lies and frauds, the fact that 'aliens' had claimed to be from about forty different planets. A growing interest in more esoteric and occult subjects. As time went on I realised that things weren't so clear cut and began to question again.
     
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    I’m anxious to read forward on to your next post Benway. But I want to drop the “E-bomb” on you first. As Debi reminded me here a few times in just two weeks such that I had to objectify same in a good way and then announce it in writing, you too Benway might be empathic. Even if you don’t have a lot of frequent “feelings”, the fact that you have on a few occasions gained knowledge through feeling fear can be interpreted as episodic empathy.
     
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    Thanks for sharing your experiences, BenwayBenway. It's interesting that these events happened every seven years and that the number seven shows up in your life.

    I too, am ready for your 21 story.
     
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    It’s great that young you wanted to stick it to the institutions and orthodoxy with your X-squared-Files project.

    However I’m saddened to read that young you is also loosing your focus and beliefs during that research. At this point I’m selfishly hoping to hear that together you two cracked wide open the entire alien conspiracy.

    And as often happens the less material side of the paranormal surfaced. I’ll continue to read and think about your postings Benway.
     
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