What am I searching for?

[K9-1]

My wife and I have been having this feeling also! We feel like changes are coming, but don't know what it is? Good or bad I'm ready!
Its not the 1st time I've had this feeling. It feels different this time though. I'm more excited than feeling my normal...high alert somethings coming...feeling.

 

[K9-1]

In the quiet of the night, where thoughts silently twirl, I search for answers, in the vast, unseen world. The echoes of my mind, like whispers in the wind, Seek truths and meanings, in places yet pinned.

What am I searching for, in this vast expanse of time? A purpose, a calling, a reason to climb. Am I looking for peace, in the chaos that reigns, Or a glimpse of the light, through life's windowpanes?

Do I seek the solace, in the heart's silent cry, Or the wisdom of the stars, scattered across the sky? Is it love that I chase, in its purest form, Or the strength to stand against the fiercest of storms?

The answers I seek are not etched in stone, They dance in the shadows, and whisper when alone. In the depths of my soul, where questions reside, I journey through life, with fate as my guide.

Perhaps the answers are not meant to be found, But in the quest itself, where life's true joys abound. For in the search, there's beauty, a story yet told, A tapestry of moments, woven in threads of gold.'


Sometimes I ask myself, "what am I searching for??"

I'm not literary expert, but I'd say you definitely have a talent there bud! I liked it and honestly I never like poems or things like that,but what you wrote was really awsome! I've read it several times now! Outside of the hobbit and LOTR I've read your stuff more than anything else!

Really awsome stuff! Thank you for sharing!

 

[MsJ]

Its like you're in my head....

 

[Debi]

Oz, you feel it too i think.... in my answer to lynne where i state " a feeling that has been nagging me" and "something in the air"., i think that is the something huge about to unfold you refer to. since learning to let go and trust the universe ive just kinda slid through the years, always knowing when "that time" was approaching and a change was about to take place. and just going with it... its taken me to a lot of places. a calling of sorts i suppose,....but this is different. so is hard to place, i dont know if its me or someone else..... sometimes those "feelings" can be hard to place or get a sense of direction on...to pinpoint. this is just different........the "is it worth it" side to the questioning is something ive never asked, so not sure where that arose from, or why, even... ive had doubts, sure. ive questioned myself many times and still put up resistance at times im not ready, but this is an oddity in its own. what is going to be is going to be, cant fight it, this ive learned, fate unfolding is usually quite smooth in a sense, this though feels much more complex in the making......
anyone else get this?????

Yes.

 

[Lynne]

Thank you Lynne, but it has a deeper meaning to myself that i doubt could be understood or conveyed to anyone else reading it. on the surface it may resonate with a few but the depth of the purpose or reasoning cant be fully understood without further explaining or knowing me. i get lucky sometimes and something good pops out and i share with a select few who may somewhat see where im headed with such ponderings. the ending of this originally was "what am i searching for?, and is it even worth it???? but the last question i dropped, even though it expressed the melancholy feeling that accompanied the thought process that brought forth the feeling to put it to word. i just wasnt sure if that would be understood in the final (shared) version without further explanation or writing to bring the depth forward of whatever philosophical thoughts that were surfacing from my mind at 2 am ..... i try to keep most writings short and simple and not think too deeply...... actually a rather shallow thinking kinda guy...lol..... (and while this has a meaning to myself i also think that there may be someone else who may understand what lies below the surface of what is written, and that being said, i probably should have left the original last question included )

Thanks for sharing it, Paul. I get the melancholy sadness; it happens more and more as we age, and time is shorter. Looking at life through a different lense for sure. I think of staying in the moment and the wonder of enjoying the physical world in doing something simple like eating a piece of chocolate or sipping a good wine. I think if I become a spirit and can't have this again, I will enjoy it now. Then the physical becomes worth it, at least for me in the moment on a shallow level.

 

[Lynne]

Oz, you feel it too i think.... in my answer to lynne where i state " a feeling that has been nagging me" and "something in the air"., i think that is the something huge about to unfold you refer to. since learning to let go and trust the universe ive just kinda slid through the years, always knowing when "that time" was approaching and a change was about to take place. and just going with it... its taken me to a lot of places. a calling of sorts i suppose,....but this is different. so is hard to place, i dont know if its me or someone else..... sometimes those "feelings" can be hard to place or get a sense of direction on...to pinpoint. this is just different........the "is it worth it" side to the questioning is something ive never asked, so not sure where that arose from, or why, even... ive had doubts, sure. ive questioned myself many times and still put up resistance at times im not ready, but this is an oddity in its own. what is going to be is going to be, cant fight it, this ive learned, fate unfolding is usually quite smooth in a sense, this though feels much more complex in the making......
anyone else get this?????

Yes, from a Christian perspective we would believe it is the coming of Christ and some are awaiting the rapture of the church, which for some is the next event on the biblical calendar. From a non-religious perspective, I think people are feeling the wrapping of things and end to this earth age regardless of the catalyst. You are right in my opinion the fate of this planet and all on it are not in our hands as much as we like to think we can control it. Whatever happens we have to have faith that there is more after and like Red Elk the well-known Heyoka Medicine Man and prognosticator said before he died, to survive we must "bend like the read in the wind".

 

[Duke]

Fergal Keane on PTSD, depression and the secret to happiness

Prompted by Blue Monday, the BBC's special correspondent reflects on his struggle to find balance and joy in life - and a surprisingly straightforward solution.

www.bbc.com

I thought this was an interesting adjunct to Paul's original thought provoking piece.

 

[garnetsilver]

Fergal Keane on PTSD, depression and the secret to happiness

Prompted by Blue Monday, the BBC's special correspondent reflects on his struggle to find balance and joy in life - and a surprisingly straightforward solution.

www.bbc.com

I thought this was an interesting adjunct to Paul's original thought provoking piece.

That article really resonated with me. And then there is this famous quote:

“Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.”
​

Nathaniel Hawthorne

 

[Paulm]

Fergal Keane on PTSD, depression and the secret to happiness

Prompted by Blue Monday, the BBC's special correspondent reflects on his struggle to find balance and joy in life - and a surprisingly straightforward solution.

www.bbc.com

I thought this was an interesting adjunct to Paul's original thought provoking piece.

That article really resonated with me. And then there is this famous quote:

“Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.” ​

​

Nathaniel Hawthorne

"life is suffering".... probably most recognized or related to thoughts of far east teachings such as Taoism, or Buddhism, (this was the first realization of the first Buddha, resulting in the four noble truths and the eight fold path....which this article brings to mind, in a way..... that set the foundation of the Buddhist monastery and "way").. but is the basics of most other teachings as well... just emphasized more in the far eastern philosophies. along with the teachings / quotes such as , " if you search for it, it cannot be found" or "the only zen you will find on the mountain top is the zen you bring with you".....

 

[Lynne]

Fergal Keane on PTSD, depression and the secret to happiness

Prompted by Blue Monday, the BBC's special correspondent reflects on his struggle to find balance and joy in life - and a surprisingly straightforward solution.

www.bbc.com

I thought this was an interesting adjunct to Paul's original thought provoking piece.

A good testimony to aid in depression.