What am I searching for?

[Paulm]

In the quiet of the night, where thoughts silently twirl, I search for answers, in the vast, unseen world. The echoes of my mind, like whispers in the wind, Seek truths and meanings, in places yet pinned.

What am I searching for, in this vast expanse of time? A purpose, a calling, a reason to climb. Am I looking for peace, in the chaos that reigns, Or a glimpse of the light, through life's windowpanes?

Do I seek the solace, in the heart's silent cry, Or the wisdom of the stars, scattered across the sky? Is it love that I chase, in its purest form, Or the strength to stand against the fiercest of storms?

The answers I seek are not etched in stone, They dance in the shadows, and whisper when alone. In the depths of my soul, where questions reside, I journey through life, with fate as my guide.

Perhaps the answers are not meant to be found, But in the quest itself, where life's true joys abound. For in the search, there's beauty, a story yet told, A tapestry of moments, woven in threads of gold.'


Sometimes I ask myself, "what am I searching for??"

 

[Lynne]

Paul did you write this? It is beautiful and profound. I think we all have been in this space and more often as time runs out for us on the physical plane. Aging is tough as we have to think of life and our future differently.

 

[Paulm]

Paul did you write this? It is beautiful and profound. I think we all have been in this space and more often as time runs out for us on the physical plane. Aging is tough as we have to think of life and our future differently.

this is the product of 2 am, cant sleep, ponderings.... and a feeling that has been nagging at me for a while now, topped of with something else in the air, (but not sure where from)..............just one of those things............

 

[Selectric]

this is the product of 2 am, cant sleep, ponderings.... and a feeling that has been nagging at me for a while now, topped of with something else in the air, (but not sure where from)..............just one of those things............

I've had those early morning moments where 'outside forces' seem to direct me toward something. Beautifully written Paul!

 

[ozentity]

Great stuff Paul, I think you nailed it.

 

[Lynne]

this is the product of 2 am, cant sleep, ponderings.... and a feeling that has been nagging at me for a while now, topped of with something else in the air, (but not sure where from)..............just one of those things............

This is really good! You should submit it somewhere for publishing.

 

[Paulm]

This is really good! You should submit it somewhere for publishing.

Thank you Lynne, but it has a deeper meaning to myself that i doubt could be understood or conveyed to anyone else reading it. on the surface it may resonate with a few but the depth of the purpose or reasoning cant be fully understood without further explaining or knowing me. i get lucky sometimes and something good pops out and i share with a select few who may somewhat see where im headed with such ponderings. the ending of this originally was "what am i searching for?, and is it even worth it???? but the last question i dropped, even though it expressed the melancholy feeling that accompanied the thought process that brought forth the feeling to put it to word. i just wasnt sure if that would be understood in the final (shared) version without further explanation or writing to bring the depth forward of whatever philosophical thoughts that were surfacing from my mind at 2 am ..... i try to keep most writings short and simple and not think too deeply...... actually a rather shallow thinking kinda guy...lol..... (and while this has a meaning to myself i also think that there may be someone else who may understand what lies below the surface of what is written, and that being said, i probably should have left the original last question included )

 

[garnetsilver]

That was both beautiful and profound. It definitely resonated with me!

 

[ozentity]

what am i searching for?,

I've had this question to myself my whole life but I can feel something huge about to unfold and instead of my usual apprehension, I welcome it. The is it worth it question, I don't think anyone could answer.

 

[Paulm]

I've had this question to myself my whole life but I can feel something huge about to unfold and instead of my usual apprehension, I welcome it. The is it worth it question, I don't think anyone could answer.

Oz, you feel it too i think.... in my answer to lynne where i state " a feeling that has been nagging me" and "something in the air"., i think that is the something huge about to unfold you refer to. since learning to let go and trust the universe ive just kinda slid through the years, always knowing when "that time" was approaching and a change was about to take place. and just going with it... its taken me to a lot of places. a calling of sorts i suppose,....but this is different. so is hard to place, i dont know if its me or someone else..... sometimes those "feelings" can be hard to place or get a sense of direction on...to pinpoint. this is just different........the "is it worth it" side to the questioning is something ive never asked, so not sure where that arose from, or why, even... ive had doubts, sure. ive questioned myself many times and still put up resistance at times im not ready, but this is an oddity in its own. what is going to be is going to be, cant fight it, this ive learned, fate unfolding is usually quite smooth in a sense, this though feels much more complex in the making......
anyone else get this?????