I am here because I urgently need help. I've been dealing with it for over 2 years and I don't know what to do. I tried everything to help myself, but I was only successful for a short time, then everything from scratch. My story is long, I will try to be brief.
I am 49 years old and live in Germany. Over two years ago, I was in a relationship with a man and I experienced very strange things. I had visions, strange smells appeared and I had and have nightmares. In a dream scenario was a young man. He smiled at me, but I felt that he was really bad. When I realized that, his facial expressions changed and he said something in a foreign language. I did some research later and it was very similar to the Sumerian language. I could not notice the wording because it was a foreign language, but I found some sound recordings by a linguist who deals with old languages.
In addition, there was and still is a smell. In my opinion it smells like old books and sour apples. As in the past with grandma in the basement where she stored apples. My relationship with the man was a catastrophe. He lied and cheated on me, confused my mind, and it took me several tries to end the relationship. Every time I wanted to part with him, the smell of apples and books immediately appeared and I had nightmares again. With a lot of prayer and my own willpower, I managed to separate. But my partner at the time was very angry about it.
I was alone for a while to recover. 8 months after the separation, I met someone again. The beginning was very nice but after two weeks he started to show me that I was not important to him. Please understand me correctly. This is not a love story. I have to tell all of this so that the connections become clear. From now on, he kept giving me reason to doubt him and we fought often and strongly. In between there were phases of good times again. During this time my perception increased. I smelled smells that were not there, found alleged evidence of his unfaithfulness and everything looks somehow staged.
You have to know the details to see that, but then this post will be too long. At some point I thought he was just an asshole and left him. From there everything was back to normal. No smells, no nightmares, no cracking in the apartment at night. It was like someone didn't want me to be with the new man. When I saw the context, I told it something to do, I don't own it, and I make my own decisions. Then I got nightmares again but I didn't give up. I told my partner about my suspicion that something is wrong here. He is desperate and no longer knows what to do. Our relationship is pending the final one.
We prayed, he more than I, we smoked with sage and incense, we work with singing bowl and salt, I was with a shaman to be able to rule out my own causes. I looked for help everywhere, but often got a cancellation or was ripped off without any real help. I am not Rockefeller and I have little money. The smell of apples and books is back. And whenever I think about continuing my relationship at any cost.
When I think about finally ending my relationship, everything is calm. What's this?? I do not know how to continue. Can someone help me? Thank you for reading this long text. I wanted to cut it but it didn't work. Please, can anyone help or advise me?
Meggie
I am 49 years old and live in Germany. Over two years ago, I was in a relationship with a man and I experienced very strange things. I had visions, strange smells appeared and I had and have nightmares. In a dream scenario was a young man. He smiled at me, but I felt that he was really bad. When I realized that, his facial expressions changed and he said something in a foreign language. I did some research later and it was very similar to the Sumerian language. I could not notice the wording because it was a foreign language, but I found some sound recordings by a linguist who deals with old languages.
In addition, there was and still is a smell. In my opinion it smells like old books and sour apples. As in the past with grandma in the basement where she stored apples. My relationship with the man was a catastrophe. He lied and cheated on me, confused my mind, and it took me several tries to end the relationship. Every time I wanted to part with him, the smell of apples and books immediately appeared and I had nightmares again. With a lot of prayer and my own willpower, I managed to separate. But my partner at the time was very angry about it.
I was alone for a while to recover. 8 months after the separation, I met someone again. The beginning was very nice but after two weeks he started to show me that I was not important to him. Please understand me correctly. This is not a love story. I have to tell all of this so that the connections become clear. From now on, he kept giving me reason to doubt him and we fought often and strongly. In between there were phases of good times again. During this time my perception increased. I smelled smells that were not there, found alleged evidence of his unfaithfulness and everything looks somehow staged.
You have to know the details to see that, but then this post will be too long. At some point I thought he was just an asshole and left him. From there everything was back to normal. No smells, no nightmares, no cracking in the apartment at night. It was like someone didn't want me to be with the new man. When I saw the context, I told it something to do, I don't own it, and I make my own decisions. Then I got nightmares again but I didn't give up. I told my partner about my suspicion that something is wrong here. He is desperate and no longer knows what to do. Our relationship is pending the final one.
We prayed, he more than I, we smoked with sage and incense, we work with singing bowl and salt, I was with a shaman to be able to rule out my own causes. I looked for help everywhere, but often got a cancellation or was ripped off without any real help. I am not Rockefeller and I have little money. The smell of apples and books is back. And whenever I think about continuing my relationship at any cost.
When I think about finally ending my relationship, everything is calm. What's this?? I do not know how to continue. Can someone help me? Thank you for reading this long text. I wanted to cut it but it didn't work. Please, can anyone help or advise me?
Meggie
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