Thank you so much for the likes!
I remember now I have left out the paranormal side to it.
Been in contact with previous owner and it use to be the same ghostly activities then too but then blamed on some old relative just visiting (or perhaps excuse for not informing). It is not the only home nearby that has this. Too at work. Did traditional cleanses and after that a little bit, but now no more. With this said I think too it is important to know that one or two people can by feelings alone create poltergheist activity, and two sensitive people can be easily more seen by the other side and chosen. I think with us it was a mix of those things.
The past life was in Bulgaria, in a village where Jewish families lived. On the looks of things we were peasants, and we had chicken that I fed. So far so good, right, only unfortunately for me I went insane there for a period. It was ater much grief and tried to commit suicide, this when walking out in the dead of the night in the forest, following a stream to end it all, but somehow the husband (the one who reminded me very much of my co worker physical speaking) found me and took me back.
I can't tell you all the nightmares throughout my life I have had of walking in the dark wood, not understanding why I am dressed the way I am dressed or where I am going. It has always given me anxiety in the dreams but in this life I don't have anxiety so it has always been seen as just a nightmare, even as someone else's feelings even though I know it is me, but still not me, you know what I mean?
In this life I have never been too fond at all to go in the woods and to live close by. I want lots of street lights and lots of homes and people close by. Now I know why
These fears and negative emotions has been asleep before, but it was as if they were triggered by his return or him simply looking like the husband use to, but too also still blocked before the meditations. I really needed to do those because my energy was pointing in all kinds of crazy directions. It was as if it was just waiting to break out.
I think the reason I suddenly was to burst up in flames each time seeing him suddenly after he had been gone and been ill, is because in my subcounscious logic, my past life self had survived her husband, and when he "came back" he did so in the tunnel to "fetch" her, but in my mind seeing him coming back - was the psychosomatic sign echoing from that life. Because when he did come back - I saw him like that, walking towards me (nothing strange with that, ha ha). Complicated, if you ask me, but now at least I know why...
The last vision I had was of a child, dressed in that time's ways, who did one wave at me and smiled, a past life memory?
It somehow make me think we are all alright now. We had lost at least one child in that life, could be why I went insane and wanted to end things. Today, at least I am left with a good feeling of it all, somehow that boy showing up gave me the feeling we are all alright then. I feel lots of harmony these days.
Thank you
Hope I did not bore you out of your mind!
I respect anyone who does not believe in past life, but I don't even think it is that important because somehow past life regression works