So it's been almost a year since i kicked my 'friend' to the curb. The past month i have been feeling It's presence growing. It's not easy to explain, but i just sense It circling me. Coinciding with this i have been catching flashes of my grandfather. In some sort of way they could tie as when i still lived in that house my grandpop was alive and eventually passed. He was a strong man just like my other pop on my mom's side, but passed before i was 17. I mentioned him before as i have always used his handshake. When you shake someone's hand, you shake it with respect and strength (i am same way with hugs lol). I think about him on occasion but never received flashes of him out of the blue. Perhaps he is watching over me knowing this damn thing might be looking for another peck at me? I have learned quite a bit since coming here and i feel i am ready to wage war again...if it comes to it. There is too much going on in my life to have to deal with that all over again. Maybe Pop is here to help me do that. I don't know. But sure feels good to know he has my back if somehow i wane in this. Hell, it's good for anyone to know if that enemy is banging on your gate, you are never alone. Thanks, Pop and I am Sorry (he knows what i mean).