Okay, I'm tired, but against good sense here are my gibberish notes which look like the crazed and incoherent ramblings of a nutcase:
Reality is defined not only by our perception of it but by ourself, though it is in competition with the gestalt reality inflicted by others.
Things needed to gain mastery of the self and thus reality, which is shaped by you and also by all others who are part of the whole with each being the whole:
The art of flying is throwing oneself at the ground and missing.
Tiredness creates the mental incompetence needed to do half of this.
Also you were completely in control due to your state of mind
You weren't thinking about it though due to the preceding.
You had a powerful sense of purpose directed through will in two different directions at once. Thoughts directed at the whole rather than the self, aiding skirting the sense of self.
Reality is built of mathematics at a deep level, and probability is a deep part of that. Reality is a series of probabilities all of which play out, but our sense of time which we inflict on ourselves to stay sane rather than constantly experiencing every moment of our lives and the sense of self which prevents us from experiencing every other life all at once causes those probabilities to collapse into one which is defined as the one that happened. To us.
The consensus view of what happened to each self determines material reality.
Intense sense of purpose + tiredness short circuiting connection to normal reality + total focus +intense thought of two things that must be at once in contradiction to the normal reality = you missed the ground and for a short while were in charge of reality where it related to your will.
- end of rough thoughts. Sorry , this probably looks like nonsense. Feel free to ask what on Earth any part of that means!