Hello everyone, I'm a newbie here. Thank you for letting me be part of this forum. English is not my first language, but I will try my best
I have had paranormal experiences happening throughout my life without thinking about it too much. I only came to the conclusion that there are things out there we can not phantom. I come from an atheist family.
I have had past life memories from when I was young and have found 2 past live's identities. That was validation to me.
When I started to do past life regression meditation is when paranormal activity increased around me. I have been use to it, but not to the same extent.
When I began to experience a past life as Laura, part of a Mormon mission group who lived in New Zealand, married, became a mother, (WW1), these past life experiences started to frighten me.
Laura was accused by a mother figure to have started little fires here and there in the home.
When Laura was little and sat in a horse carriage with Mother she predicted a fire on the upper floor to a house they were passing by. Most houses were built of wood, only few of bricks. Mother thought Laura was bad. This was because of fire being connected to her.
I experienced Laura being asked questions by a small group of grown ups, part of a church movement in a room where the door were closed. The Church took her in, they were Mormons. She began to live with a family, Mormons, that were kind to her. (There had been a deal so money was sent to Mother who had other children she cared for too.).
When Laura later in life was married to a rancher she began seeing, feeling a ghost of a woman she identified as the rancher's first wife (who had past away during travel, a pretty brunette, she was not buried in her book on holy ground which is what she wanted). When Laura's son died after a time of illness she could close her eyes and see him, touch him, in a reality that blurred itself into the dimension where her son was.
Her husband had been a general during WW1 and had made it back, but the war had changed him. He had an injury which caused him pain so he took something for it + he went for the bottle.
I have scenes where he began to be brutal to her through his transformation. She finally left in the middle of the night when he was sleeping, on a horse, and was taken in by friends. He was later found hanged when she returned to the ranch home with a male friend (for protection) to pick up her belongings.
Now to my life. My daughter has always been sensitive. She has always talked to me about seeing a ghost in her room during the night. We even changed room for her in effort to have her feel more safe. Her description of the ghost was the looks of Laura's husband.
I would see dark shadow-figures. I would hear a small child cry. I would have gotten bite marks from a child's teeth. All sorts of things were happening that sound unrealistic. There was so much noise in the home at times, sounding like someone was smashing porcelain but nothing was moved. We would all hear steps. Door handle moving down on their own. Heavy knocks. There would be someone I thought was my husband who would open and close the bedroom door, I could feel his heavy body as he got into bed, but when I turn around no one was there. There would be a problem with the electricity. I am known at work to not go too close to electric devices as they tend to get messed up or broke, it is an old joke.
When I would pass on bicycle an area where I live I would suddenly see a vision of people being hanged there in devices made of wood that I have not seen in real life, if those type could have looked like that. I saw a man who held his hand on one of them, and a boy further away. This boy was a ghost too, 10-12 year old looking, and had tried to get my attention for some time. He was older than Laura's child, who was 4 and whom I began to bump into at home too. It was as if there was a wall there. He was particular interested when ever I was in the kitchen, cooking, baking. He seemed to have fancied the gun-toys my daughter had. She would try to hide them and say she wanted them for herself. They had sound and light to them and even if the batteries were out they would still go on and off.
I finally used a pray and a bible and kept reading it to try to help the man I had seen over by the hanging device machine (by the look of it hundreds and hundreds years ago) to go to the light, as they say. Meanwhile as I was doing this I saw a vision of a mean man who tried to interfere and "talk" down to me. When he was at his strongest he just vanished and I kept doing what I did.
I have done the same regarding the ghost my child saw and the child-ghost.
One day I got hold of material that verified the visions I had seen of the area had been a hanging-place. It was not something the small village thought/think was/is attractive for the reputation. I was able to see that the hanging devices looked like they had looked like in my vision. They look kind of off, different from those I have seen on the television.
I did "cleaning" of the home and I stopped meditating. I prayed for protection. My daughter had become afraid of everything that had been going on. Over time the noise died out. Then one day it began again. My daughter told me that she got so sick of all the ghosts bothering her at night, waking her up that she wished for the first ghost (the ghost who had the same physical appearance as Laura's husband) to return because she thought he kept all the others away (!).
I have all the time tried not to talk to her about all of this paranormal things happening because I did not frighten her. So I had to then repeat the cleaning.
I til this day still do not meditate. I lost my temporarily ability to see visions (I still can't claim my visions are true, of course). I was sick almost all of the time and before all this I was hardly ever sick. I was feeling mentally and physically drained out.
Even if I don't meditate something recently has happened. I saw while dreaming a gray, white circle of light and a male figure standing in the way of it. Naively I thought "Oh, how nice. Is that a spirit guide?". Next moment it came closer. Meanwhile all sorts of dark figures, mass, came out of the circle. Further away from the circle was a nun, praying, focused. I thought to myself that it wasn't helping very much if she was in mission to close up the circle. The figures would at first show interest to me, as if they were swirling around me before taking shape into men or women. Meanwhile as I went in and out of this vision I began to have scenes when I was Laura again, with her husband, ending it all when he had put his hand, thumb on her inner thigh during what looked to me a potential raping scene taking place in their marital bed during their unhappy years. Before this as I tried to wake up and change sleeping position I lay on the side and as I closed my eyes I soon saw a male figure passing by my bed. All the time I tried to tell myself it was imagination and when frighten I tried to think "Replace it with love".
I had had enough when the potential raping scene came to form, and got up and I refused to go to sleep again for the rest of the night.
Later on I have seen a bruise like circle on the exact place where Laura's husband put his thumb.
I have tried to think if I had seen this hell-of-a-bruise before and then my mind made up the circle, but I can honestly say I haven't, not at least to my knowledge. I think I ought to have remembered it as it stands out quite a bit.
My question is how could that even happen? For something in a dream to cause real-life-bruises? And a circle, like in the dream? It was the last thing I remembered, him putting his thumb there.
Also I wonder if the circle was a portal to another dimension. I wonder how portals are created. Do anyone know? Have they always been there?
One I asked on a different forum thought I was in the lower astral dimension where people go when dreaming, and I thought so too is the possibility but what I still don't understand is how memories could create real life bruises? Especially a circle. Another forum member thought this was part of Laura's past life memories as she was a Mormon. But then, again, what about the bruise? (When I had the bite marks of a small child it happened right after I had heard a child's cry).
I have been told before that I am the creator of all paranormal activity and that I have created the past life husband, the past life child, everything. Although I try to be open to this I still don't get how I could even do that and how to make it stop.
Further more there is something else I don't get. I have had these visions of the past life husband 1-2 years before a new co-worker began. I was the one to first greet him like I always greet new people. He looks just like the past life husband, although with a modern touch. I thought it is only coincidence. Lots of people look alike. Only he has much of the same type of personality, from before, before WW1 when Laura considered him a wonderful man and loved him very much. He was her world. How could all of this be? It is too complicated for me to even think about. How could he have been a ghost, but been reincarnated as well (if it is now him, that is?). These days I am polite to this co-worker, but no more. I can't help it, he kind of frighten me although he is polite back and have not done anything to me.
I am sorry it is such a long post. I would appreciate your advice and knowledge very much.I hope you don't think I am a total weirdo, but understand if you do. I have a problem understanding all of this has actually happened myself. I am usually viewed as grounded (would you believe?) and someone who does not get easily stressed out, angry etc.
Thank you
I have had paranormal experiences happening throughout my life without thinking about it too much. I only came to the conclusion that there are things out there we can not phantom. I come from an atheist family.
I have had past life memories from when I was young and have found 2 past live's identities. That was validation to me.
When I started to do past life regression meditation is when paranormal activity increased around me. I have been use to it, but not to the same extent.
When I began to experience a past life as Laura, part of a Mormon mission group who lived in New Zealand, married, became a mother, (WW1), these past life experiences started to frighten me.
Laura was accused by a mother figure to have started little fires here and there in the home.
When Laura was little and sat in a horse carriage with Mother she predicted a fire on the upper floor to a house they were passing by. Most houses were built of wood, only few of bricks. Mother thought Laura was bad. This was because of fire being connected to her.
I experienced Laura being asked questions by a small group of grown ups, part of a church movement in a room where the door were closed. The Church took her in, they were Mormons. She began to live with a family, Mormons, that were kind to her. (There had been a deal so money was sent to Mother who had other children she cared for too.).
When Laura later in life was married to a rancher she began seeing, feeling a ghost of a woman she identified as the rancher's first wife (who had past away during travel, a pretty brunette, she was not buried in her book on holy ground which is what she wanted). When Laura's son died after a time of illness she could close her eyes and see him, touch him, in a reality that blurred itself into the dimension where her son was.
Her husband had been a general during WW1 and had made it back, but the war had changed him. He had an injury which caused him pain so he took something for it + he went for the bottle.
I have scenes where he began to be brutal to her through his transformation. She finally left in the middle of the night when he was sleeping, on a horse, and was taken in by friends. He was later found hanged when she returned to the ranch home with a male friend (for protection) to pick up her belongings.
Now to my life. My daughter has always been sensitive. She has always talked to me about seeing a ghost in her room during the night. We even changed room for her in effort to have her feel more safe. Her description of the ghost was the looks of Laura's husband.
I would see dark shadow-figures. I would hear a small child cry. I would have gotten bite marks from a child's teeth. All sorts of things were happening that sound unrealistic. There was so much noise in the home at times, sounding like someone was smashing porcelain but nothing was moved. We would all hear steps. Door handle moving down on their own. Heavy knocks. There would be someone I thought was my husband who would open and close the bedroom door, I could feel his heavy body as he got into bed, but when I turn around no one was there. There would be a problem with the electricity. I am known at work to not go too close to electric devices as they tend to get messed up or broke, it is an old joke.
When I would pass on bicycle an area where I live I would suddenly see a vision of people being hanged there in devices made of wood that I have not seen in real life, if those type could have looked like that. I saw a man who held his hand on one of them, and a boy further away. This boy was a ghost too, 10-12 year old looking, and had tried to get my attention for some time. He was older than Laura's child, who was 4 and whom I began to bump into at home too. It was as if there was a wall there. He was particular interested when ever I was in the kitchen, cooking, baking. He seemed to have fancied the gun-toys my daughter had. She would try to hide them and say she wanted them for herself. They had sound and light to them and even if the batteries were out they would still go on and off.
I finally used a pray and a bible and kept reading it to try to help the man I had seen over by the hanging device machine (by the look of it hundreds and hundreds years ago) to go to the light, as they say. Meanwhile as I was doing this I saw a vision of a mean man who tried to interfere and "talk" down to me. When he was at his strongest he just vanished and I kept doing what I did.
I have done the same regarding the ghost my child saw and the child-ghost.
One day I got hold of material that verified the visions I had seen of the area had been a hanging-place. It was not something the small village thought/think was/is attractive for the reputation. I was able to see that the hanging devices looked like they had looked like in my vision. They look kind of off, different from those I have seen on the television.
I did "cleaning" of the home and I stopped meditating. I prayed for protection. My daughter had become afraid of everything that had been going on. Over time the noise died out. Then one day it began again. My daughter told me that she got so sick of all the ghosts bothering her at night, waking her up that she wished for the first ghost (the ghost who had the same physical appearance as Laura's husband) to return because she thought he kept all the others away (!).
I have all the time tried not to talk to her about all of this paranormal things happening because I did not frighten her. So I had to then repeat the cleaning.
I til this day still do not meditate. I lost my temporarily ability to see visions (I still can't claim my visions are true, of course). I was sick almost all of the time and before all this I was hardly ever sick. I was feeling mentally and physically drained out.
Even if I don't meditate something recently has happened. I saw while dreaming a gray, white circle of light and a male figure standing in the way of it. Naively I thought "Oh, how nice. Is that a spirit guide?". Next moment it came closer. Meanwhile all sorts of dark figures, mass, came out of the circle. Further away from the circle was a nun, praying, focused. I thought to myself that it wasn't helping very much if she was in mission to close up the circle. The figures would at first show interest to me, as if they were swirling around me before taking shape into men or women. Meanwhile as I went in and out of this vision I began to have scenes when I was Laura again, with her husband, ending it all when he had put his hand, thumb on her inner thigh during what looked to me a potential raping scene taking place in their marital bed during their unhappy years. Before this as I tried to wake up and change sleeping position I lay on the side and as I closed my eyes I soon saw a male figure passing by my bed. All the time I tried to tell myself it was imagination and when frighten I tried to think "Replace it with love".
I had had enough when the potential raping scene came to form, and got up and I refused to go to sleep again for the rest of the night.
Later on I have seen a bruise like circle on the exact place where Laura's husband put his thumb.
I have tried to think if I had seen this hell-of-a-bruise before and then my mind made up the circle, but I can honestly say I haven't, not at least to my knowledge. I think I ought to have remembered it as it stands out quite a bit.
My question is how could that even happen? For something in a dream to cause real-life-bruises? And a circle, like in the dream? It was the last thing I remembered, him putting his thumb there.
Also I wonder if the circle was a portal to another dimension. I wonder how portals are created. Do anyone know? Have they always been there?
One I asked on a different forum thought I was in the lower astral dimension where people go when dreaming, and I thought so too is the possibility but what I still don't understand is how memories could create real life bruises? Especially a circle. Another forum member thought this was part of Laura's past life memories as she was a Mormon. But then, again, what about the bruise? (When I had the bite marks of a small child it happened right after I had heard a child's cry).
I have been told before that I am the creator of all paranormal activity and that I have created the past life husband, the past life child, everything. Although I try to be open to this I still don't get how I could even do that and how to make it stop.
Further more there is something else I don't get. I have had these visions of the past life husband 1-2 years before a new co-worker began. I was the one to first greet him like I always greet new people. He looks just like the past life husband, although with a modern touch. I thought it is only coincidence. Lots of people look alike. Only he has much of the same type of personality, from before, before WW1 when Laura considered him a wonderful man and loved him very much. He was her world. How could all of this be? It is too complicated for me to even think about. How could he have been a ghost, but been reincarnated as well (if it is now him, that is?). These days I am polite to this co-worker, but no more. I can't help it, he kind of frighten me although he is polite back and have not done anything to me.
I am sorry it is such a long post. I would appreciate your advice and knowledge very much.I hope you don't think I am a total weirdo, but understand if you do. I have a problem understanding all of this has actually happened myself. I am usually viewed as grounded (would you believe?) and someone who does not get easily stressed out, angry etc.
Thank you
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