I agree with everyone here. We all make mistakes, life gets in the way, etc. I never fully believed that we are reunited after we pass, but from being here on this forum and listening to many, i realize i did not grasp things of the beyond before. Any troubles are forgotten, Aston. Don't beat yourself up over things i'm sure have already been resolved. The love for your brother is felt and if we can feel that...so can he. It's all good. You Will see him again and all unsaid or not done is already trumped. I am not saying this just because. I really believe this. We all deserve peace. I'm sure your brother has found his...you can too. It isn't wrong...it is allowed. I recently got to have a face-to-face with a lost dear friend. I had to let go myself first before it could happen. Once i did, that burden was lifted. He is doing his 'thing'...i am doing mine and laughing together once again was a gift.