I'm not trying to threadjack here, just trying to share because it's just best to air it out instead of keeping it bottled up. I'm trying to hold my head high, but it's still hard. I've let something sink in I probably shouldn't have and on top of it all, it's the holidays and while I try to make others happy if I can, I'm anything but. I tend to put up this happy-go-lucky cheerful front but the reality is, I'm anything but underneath. And I really don't even know if I can put myself past this.