Diagnosing demonic possession

got my email to her comments/contact returned..? not unusual for stuff I do on internet to be deleted while I am typing, returned for no reason, or very often I am told they never received it... I do not fight it any more... Actually surprised I have no problem here...and no I am not a paranoid person and hate conspiracy theories..

Most of her site dated around 2008 even links very dated. Budd still up there and his site closed years go...
 
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Grant, going to send you a Private message in a minute....check the envelope in upper right hand corner for message in a few.
 
Are you asking me? If so, some of my most recent (last five years or so) have been totally different, more paranormal. Quite a lot of my experiences, for the first time to people outside of witnesses, I related on a podcast that Budd Hopkins talked me into doing as he convinced me that most of us suffer in silence and in fear and I would help them to hear my story... It was Dec.27th or 29th 2007 or 2008 on the Paracast podcast...let me look it up nope 2009 December 27, 2009 — Budd Hopkins and Doug | The Paracast — The Gold Standard of Paranormal Radio

Sorry if I sound stupid on that show, but I was scared, felt like I was breaking very powerful rules talking... It was like a overwhelming phobia I had to break way too fast. Re-started smoking an hour before the show and all these years later, still can not listen to it. My brother whom shared 2 close encounters with me, finally against my strong advice, listened to the show and could not sleep for a week... He totally cracked up and ended up in hospital for 2 weeks... He was broken, crying I was right all along, he was so sorry he did not help me all these decades... His wife, another witness to the desert encounter was not really mad at me, but I had to stay away from the hospital so he could recover. She is just as scared today over 3 decades later, but she will say its all true, but wont talk about it.... Thinks its evil....of the devil

My youngest brother, whom shared a room with me when we were young, came out of the closet after the show and told me after 50 years he saw the UFOs outside our window many times and I was gone,,, Nice , but a little too late as I needed support and help when I was 5 not 58 years old... I talked to my mom for months before agreeing to do that show and I was shocked to hear of her experiences etc.... I got so mad at them coming clean with me, I rarely have anything to do with them... except mom...I suffered a lifetime, they were witnesses and were too scared to be there for me,,,for over 50 f*cking years....and my experiences have never stopped for longer than 5 years, if I was lucky... too late to care now

Do I think about this --of course---it would be impossible to ignore as when you look around you see the weather and everything is normal....when I do, I wonder how surreal this all is and am curious how all these worlds/dimensions work.. why does my brain short circuit sometimes causing these cracks in reality... and how the hell can it engulf people near me sometimes... I don't care anymore and I am no longer scared... could be senility...or with old age you stop giving a shit over stuff you can not change...

And, yes ---I am OK, I have a very loving wife and son whom I love and cherish, every single day... We have everything we need, no debt for over 20 year and ready to retire in less than 4 years. I have my dream retirement place in SE Asia ready to vegetate at... I tell my wife that I might take up drinking when I retire as I deserve relief..... but damn, don't like the taste of any of it... Maybe pot or whatever they call it nowadays... naaaa, they execute you for that in those countries.

Will get back to you as soon as I can Grant , probably be a private message .