The Public Eye

It isn't just fear. It's also failure and disappointment and sometimes the walls will come up subconsciously. Just my two cents.
I think this is my problem with public speaking, I don't want to fail at it. While I hate crowds, parties in particular, once I'm forced there I'm the life of the party. It's different to public speaking as everyone is usually drunk at parties and comedy is my thing which most appreciate when half hammered, lol.
 
I think this is my problem with public speaking, I don't want to fail at it. While I hate crowds, parties in particular, once I'm forced there I'm the life of the party. It's different to public speaking as everyone is usually drunk at parties and comedy is my thing which most appreciate when half hammered, lol.
Believe me, I know how you feel with it. I can do neither large crowds nor public speaking.
 
It isn't just fear. It's also failure and disappointment and sometimes the walls will come up subconsciously. Just my two cents.
reactions are almost always done subconsciously, but is usually a by-product of fear, of failing again, or being disappointed again. of being wronged by someone...again. etc... being focused on the failure or disappointment is almost always one sided, not seeing the whole truth or placing blame wholly on an outside circumstance or individual instead of taking responsibility of choices made or ones own involvement, etc..... which leads to being unforgiving, un-trusting, blah blah blah...but the root stems from fear only.......... most times....
 
eactions are almost always done subconsciously, but is usually a by-product of fear, of failing again, or being disappointed again.
I think mine started when I was best man at my mates wedding at 21. I'd rehearsed my speech every day and the morning of the wedding my mates bad brother said have a toke on a number to calm me down. I don't know what was in it but I was smashed all day and couldn't remember a word of my speech. I think he was jealous and did this on purpose. I hate that guy.
 
I think mine started when I was best man at my mates wedding at 21. I'd rehearsed my speech every day and the morning of the wedding my mates bad brother said have a toke on a number to calm me down. I don't know what was in it but I was smashed all day and couldn't remember a word of my speech. I think he was jealous and did this on purpose. I hate that guy.
I've had a few times someone sabotaged me, but looking back i probably sabotaged myself more than others did to me. Ah, the stupid things we did when we were young (every so often current Doh! moments) lol.
 
I've had a few times someone sabotaged me, but looking back i probably sabotaged myself more than others did to me. Ah, the stupid things we did when we were young (every so often current Doh! moments) lol.
Yeah I didn't have to have it but I did learn, that and a lifetime of public fear, lol.
 
I've had a few times someone sabotaged me, but looking back i probably sabotaged myself more than others did to me. Ah, the stupid things we did when we were young (every so often current Doh! moments) lol.
Yeah there was a whole bunch of stupid stuff back then. And I just kind of turn back and laugh on my Homer Simpson moments.
I don't want to put too sharp of a point on it because I had my Freddie Mercury moments.
Not a Wallflower on the outside.
 
For me it is a state of mind at each given time. If i feel i don't want to be somewhere, i tend to stand in the shadows. If i feel comfortable from giddy-yup, then yeah mingle and whatever else comes out lol.