Shadow people are trying to feed off me

I came back to this thread tonight, to apologize for the flippant response to Synaps3 in this discussion. It was a bitter response, born of frustration, and the overwhelming tiredness of dealing with darkness because others refuse. I should not have posted at all. Debi's House deserves better from me.

I am going to reply to Synaps3 again, here, now... with what my opinion of his situation is. Not pretty, but truthful.

I will discuss my version of "free will" (what I am meaning) and Rules and Regs of Light and Dark. But not here. I will give a good effort to post that in the Spiritual Forum as soon as I can pull the Power to do it right - so soon... maybe sooner ~ and then I will return to my retirement for a time and half time, or half past maybe, or some such.

That post will be out of respect for Debi and Her House... that the interpretation is clarified and semantics wiped clean.

Synaps, the following is my opinion and my Voice, on this dark thing you are asking about here... since you asked. I have read over this thread many times ~ Real or Trickster matters not. The view is the same.

I believe this is not They but One and it is YOUR Spirit thrust from you... and bound by you at the same time... And you are aware, on some level, that this is the product of your efforts. It would take an unimaginable power of will and hatred I would think... And it is the cruelest thing that has ever entered my Sight and that is saying more than you will ever know. I hope you are as aware, on some level, of what the real consequences will be.

whenever I try to talk to this thing, it repeats back to me what I just said. It doesn't seem to have any intelligence. It is becoming clear that it is not mocking me, but that it either is me or has some very close connection to me.

Within this whole thread you have thrown blame... to mushrooms, lack of love, loneliness, loss of free will, parents... I repeat Lynne here... the lack of love begins with you. And I say, Free Will can not be lost nor taken, only freely given.

This is my Opinion and My Voice. If I am wrong ~ The Creator will weight my Feather and the judgement be His.
 
I came back to this thread tonight, to apologize for the flippant response to Synaps3 in this discussion. It was a bitter response, born of frustration, and the overwhelming tiredness of dealing with darkness because others refuse. I should not have posted at all. Debi's House deserves better from me.

I am going to reply to Synaps3 again, here, now... with what my opinion of his situation is. Not pretty, but truthful.

I will discuss my version of "free will" (what I am meaning) and Rules and Regs of Light and Dark. But not here. I will give a good effort to post that in the Spiritual Forum as soon as I can pull the Power to do it right - so soon... maybe sooner ~ and then I will return to my retirement for a time and half time, or half past maybe, or some such.

That post will be out of respect for Debi and Her House... that the interpretation is clarified and semantics wiped clean.

Synaps, the following is my opinion and my Voice, on this dark thing you are asking about here... since you asked. I have read over this thread many times ~ Real or Trickster matters not. The view is the same.

I believe this is not They but One and it is YOUR Spirit thrust from you... and bound by you at the same time... And you are aware, on some level, that this is the product of your efforts. It would take an unimaginable power of will and hatred I would think... And it is the cruelest thing that has ever entered my Sight and that is saying more than you will ever know. I hope you are as aware, on some level, of what the real consequences will be.



Within this whole thread you have thrown blame... to mushrooms, lack of love, loneliness, loss of free will, parents... I repeat Lynne here... the lack of love begins with you. And I say, Free Will can not be lost nor taken, only freely given.

This is my Opinion and My Voice. If I am wrong ~ The Creator will weight my Feather and the judgement be His.
Donna, I found your first post excellent and educational. Your descriptions of shadow beings is the best I’ve read. Thank you.
 
Donna, I found your first post excellent and educational. Your descriptions of shadow beings is the best I’ve read. Thank you.

Thank you Lady... I have wanted to join that conversation for awhile and procrastinated... why oh why my Child self decided this was the time and place is a Mystery. But those are my true experiences. 'shivers'.

My apology was for posting a comment to the original Synaps3 question in a way I have called more than one down for on numerous occasions. With ego, which in this case, was born from frustration. You know, laugh or cry. Or be rude. Kind of thing. But still inexcusable.

But shadow beings - yeah, I have had the honor (or ill luck) to witness these One's enough to categorize them. That Fedora Dude - man. I wouldn't mess with that One for... well... any thing. :eyes::seenoevil:
 
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I just installed a night vision camera in my room tonight, so I'll be back in a few days if I catch anything.

Synaps, the following is my opinion and my Voice, on this dark thing you are asking about here... since you asked. I have read over this thread many times ~ Real or Trickster matters not. The view is the same.

I believe this is not They but One and it is YOUR Spirit thrust from you... and bound by you at the same time... And you are aware, on some level, that this is the product of your efforts. It would take an unimaginable power of will and hatred I would think... And it is the cruelest thing that has ever entered my Sight and that is saying more than you will ever know. I hope you are as aware, on some level, of what the real consequences will be.
Within this whole thread you have thrown blame... to mushrooms, lack of love, loneliness, loss of free will, parents... I repeat Lynne here... the lack of love begins with you. And I say, Free Will can not be lost nor taken, only freely given.

Well, alright, that sounds pretty masochistic. I don't believe I would do anything like that to myself. Maybe on an unconscious level, it could be possible, but I don't understand why.
Why would I will my spirit to attack myself? I just feel lonely and unloved, but I don't hate myself. I've noticed that most people with self-esteem issues have a problem of not loving themselves. I do not have poor self-esteem, however and a lot of people have mistaken my problems for that. I honestly think I am a pretty good person. I just don't have love.
Now a lot of people say that you have to love yourself to be loved. I understand this and I've been told this before, however, this is not my situation either. My situation is simply being in an isolated area and being raised in such a way that I never experienced any closeness and so it makes it very hard for me to get into a relationship.
Now I know what a lot of people will think. Don't look for love outside yourself because it is not lasting. In other words, don't rely on a relationship as the sole provider of love for your life. Well, inside me there is nothing, so what do I do?

I partially agree with your premise though. I think you are right that it is my spirit, but I don't think I willed it to do this to me. My idea now is that it is trying to scare me to get me out of this place because it knows this is not a healthy house to be living in. It wants me to leave I think.
 
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I just installed a night vision camera in my room tonight, so I'll be back in a few days if I catch anything.



Well, alright, that sounds pretty masochistic. I don't believe I would do anything like that to myself. Maybe on an unconscious level, it could be possible, but I don't understand why.
Why would I will my spirit to attack myself? I just feel lonely and unloved, but I don't hate myself. I've noticed that most people with self-esteem issues have a problem of not loving themselves. I do not have poor self-esteem, however and a lot of people have mistaken my problems for that. I honestly think I am a pretty good person. I just don't have love.
Now a lot of people say that you have to love yourself to be loved. I understand this and I've been told this before, however, this is not my situation either. My situation is simply being in an isolated area and being raised in such a way that I never experienced any closeness and so it makes it very hard for me to get into a relationship.
Now I know what a lot of people will think. Don't look for love outside yourself because it is not lasting. In other words, don't rely on a relationship as the sole provider of love for your life. Well, inside me there is nothing, so what do I do?

I partially agree with your premise though. I think you are right that it is my spirit, but I don't think I willed it to do this to me. My idea now is that it is trying to scare me to get me out of this place because it knows this is not a healthy house to be living in. It wants me to leave I think.
Synaps, you will find a wide variety of responses on a public forum. Take from it the advice that works for you. Your intuition seems to be giving you suggestions to move. Perhaps this would be good for a fresh start somewhere. If this is possible. You might have access to meeting more people.
 
I just installed a night vision camera in my room tonight, so I'll be back in a few days if I catch anything.



Well, alright, that sounds pretty masochistic. I don't believe I would do anything like that to myself. Maybe on an unconscious level, it could be possible, but I don't understand why.
Why would I will my spirit to attack myself? I just feel lonely and unloved, but I don't hate myself. I've noticed that most people with self-esteem issues have a problem of not loving themselves. I do not have poor self-esteem, however and a lot of people have mistaken my problems for that. I honestly think I am a pretty good person. I just don't have love.
Now a lot of people say that you have to love yourself to be loved. I understand this and I've been told this before, however, this is not my situation either. My situation is simply being in an isolated area and being raised in such a way that I never experienced any closeness and so it makes it very hard for me to get into a relationship.
Now I know what a lot of people will think. Don't look for love outside yourself because it is not lasting. In other words, don't rely on a relationship as the sole provider of love for your life. Well, inside me there is nothing, so what do I do?

I partially agree with your premise though. I think you are right that it is my spirit, but I don't think I willed it to do this to me. My idea now is that it is trying to scare me to get me out of this place because it knows this is not a healthy house to be living in. It wants me to leave I think.

10 Years ago my younger brother died and it wrecked me. I was lost and devastated. We were best friends. Before that I would get these attacks periodically here and there 1-2 times per month. I got attacked 2 times the following night and ever single day for almost 2 weeks. Looking back now I see that it was feeding on my negative energy. I’m sure I was a ripe target for it.

I believe you’ve become a target of an entity because of the energy that surrounds you. You feel unloved and unhappy and you want to leave. Something has felt that and it’s been attracted to you because of it. You never summoned it with a Ouija board or dabbled in the occult, it just found a tasty snack to feed off of and I believe that’s the reason this is happening to you. Having said that, I hope that you can try to do something about it. Turn your energy from a negative to a positive and just maybe you won’t be such a delicious snack for this thing.
 
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In terms of free will. So you are saying that I must have allowed this thing to attack me? Well, I must have been deceived then.

There are a lot of ways I could have been deceived because as I said earlier - I don't have any love. I did some bad things like lusting over someone I knew was a bad person, but I had no other options at that point.


Well, alright, that sounds pretty masochistic. I don't believe I would do anything like that to myself. Maybe on an unconscious level, it could be possible, but I don't understand why.
Why would I will my spirit to attack myself? I just feel lonely and unloved, but I don't hate myself. I've noticed that most people with self-esteem issues have a problem of not loving themselves. I do not have poor self-esteem, however and a lot of people have mistaken my problems for that. I honestly think I am a pretty good person. I just don't have love.

I wanted to address these comments Synaps3. I have been unusually short of free time lately and still am, but you absolutely deserve a response and I promise I will make that happen asap.
 
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