Anyone else out there have Spirit Guides?

I don't claim to know everything, because if I did, I'd be equal with Source, but I don't think that you're missing anything...these things get revealed to us in time, when they know that we are ready to receive. There is some kind of higher organization to it., it's not always possible for us to understand.

What are you protecting yourself from my friend? The other spirits? I too live in a kind of protection mode, but those that are good know their way through. Perhaps the same guides who protect you in the scenarios you describe, your grandfather included (ancestor protection) also protect you from all energies that wish you harm. And it is also possible, that the guides you do have, who you are not able to identify, understand that you may fear them & therefore remain quietly on the sideline - always present but they aren't going to step in just to say hello.

I have had to learn to ground myself and close myself and 'dim my lights' so to speak. For many reasons. Not just because of the otherworldly that I can attract, but because of the strange people who'd look to me as some kind of divine teacher, of which I am not. I'm always the student. It frightens me when people put that kind of trust in another. It happened to me this past winter, and it made things real awkward real fast. I had to close that person out. When my husband travels for work he brings back strange spirits sometimes, who need help. I smudge him now before he can get in the car at the airport. So I understand fear.

But recently I have come to learn this...that sometimes though if we hold too tightly to fear and grounding, we actually somehow do the opposite...it was only after I 'let go' that I was able to vanquish what wished to have contact with me, when I did not wish to have contact with it...it was almost as if by saying, I surrender, it gave up. My surrender did not mean my defeat, my surrender meant I know I walk in a brighter light and with a team that will not see me fall. I don't know how this works nor do I claim to want to begin to understand...as that is also part of the surrender...all I know is, it works.

You've been drawn to this place for a reason. You chose to speak up and share your experiences. Nothing is coincidence. The fact that you are exploring now, is opening your possibilities for the future. Know your guides can take many forms. Do not expect only a human. The bird in the sky, the deer in the wood...Spirit takes many forms and will speak to us in the language we understand and are comforted by.

You're going to be visited in a tangible way soon, for you are already looking, and answers come to those who seek. Fear not, you have many who love you and see that you are protected.
Indigo, what happened to me when i was younger is what i'm still protecting myself from. Although i don't know if i still need to. I was sleeping one night in bed. The home we lived in belonged to a family friend of my mom's. My mom's friend mother or great grandmother lived there i don't remember which. But the room i got was the deceased woman's room. Of course it would be me lol. It was always cold, i could feel her everyday and every night. It was very hard to sleep there. One night i went to go to the bathroom. I sat up and looked at the foot of the bed. I don't know if it was a monk, i'm thinking it was. He was dressed in a brownish red robe, with a good crucifix around his neck. He wasn't from this century at all. If i had to guess maybe the 1400s. Needless to say i jumped back into bed and didn't move. Not only that but the dead lady was very active. I would hear her walking around, i would see her. And when i would sleep i would have dreams i was watching tv and i'd see her sitting on the couch behind me. These are just some of the things i've encountered. I've had more recent ones, and that had a portal and my ex was messed with very badly. I knew something was there, i thought it was just a sprit. I told her not to worry it would be fine. But for her it wasn't. She's a empath, and when she fell asleep. A very malevolent sprit liked to hold her down and laugh at her.. I felt horrible that happened to her. That happened on a vacation to the smokey mountains. Needless to say she slept with the kiddos the rest of the week.
 
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Indigo speaks wisely here. I also agree that many here have much to teach others who come seeking. One of the main reasons this forum now exists is simply for that very reason. Be open to your truths, my friend. You will hear much...take what you need on your path. Each path is different and unique. Listen and discern what is true for you.

Don't fear the dark and fly high in the light.
Debi, that is what i'm going to try to do. Focus on the higher vibrations ;)
 
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Indigo, what happened to me when i was younger is what i'm still protecting myself from. Although i don't know if i still need to. I was sleeping one night in bed. The home we lived in belonged to a family friend of my mom's. My mom's friend mother or great grandmother lived there i don't remember which. But the room i got was the deceased woman's room. Of course it would be me lol. It was always cold, i could feel her everyday and every night. It was very hard to sleep there. One night i went to go to the bathroom. I sat up and looked at the foot of the bed. I don't know if it was a monk, i'm thinking it was. He was dressed in a brownish red robe, with a good crucifix around his neck. He wasn't from this century at all. If i had to guess maybe the 1400s. Needless to say i jumped back into bed and didn't move. Not only that but the dead lady was very active. I would hear her walking around, i would see her. And when i would sleep i would have dreams i was watching tv and i'd see her sitting on the couch behind me. These are just some of the things i've encountered. I've had more recent ones, and that had a portal and my ex was messed with very badly. I knew something was there, i thought it was just a sprit. I told her not to worry it would be fine. But for her it wasn't. She's a empath, and when she fell asleep. A very malevolent sprit liked to hold her down and laugh at her.. I felt horrible that happened to her. That happened on a vacation to the smokey mountains. Needless to say she slept with the kiddos the rest of the week.
Sometimes I think tasting the darkness is part of the test of our strength. Do we like that taste, or do we spit it out fiercely? You my friend spit it out & look around for the mouthwash! It's the people who desire another taste to see if they find it disagreeable, that have something to fear.

Was it frightening to encounter the monk, or was it more frightening that he was from so long ago? My first guide was from the 1600s - my second guide, far, far older than that...older than Christ...I had no problem accepting my friend from the 1600s, but for some reason, I had a much harder time coming to terms with my very ancient guide. To me, it's that the very old have seen so much more, and existed so much longer, but remember...if this thought brings fear to you, that you & I have no idea how old we are ourselves. Not the age of the vessel we inhabit, we know that...but we do not know how old our spirits are.

The light is a very powerful thing...everyone says light is the fastest thing in the universe, but this is not true because the darkness is already there, waiting...yet somehow there is also light...it's a great mystery. The darkness always is, but the light only is because of the will of something for it to be. That's all I need to know, to understand, I am who I am for a reason, and that though the darkness may lay in wait, so too will the light come rushing in and be the only thing to be remembered or revered.
 
Sometimes I think tasting the darkness is part of the test of our strength. Do we like that taste, or do we spit it out fiercely? You my friend spit it out & look around for the mouthwash! It's the people who desire another taste to see if they find it disagreeable, that have something to fear.

Was it frightening to encounter the monk, or was it more frightening that he was from so long ago? My first guide was from the 1600s - my second guide, far, far older than that...older than Christ...I had no problem accepting my friend from the 1600s, but for some reason, I had a much harder time coming to terms with my very ancient guide. To me, it's that the very old have seen so much more, and existed so much longer, but remember...if this thought brings fear to you, that you & I have no idea how old we are ourselves. Not the age of the vessel we inhabit, we know that...but we do not know how old our spirits are.

The light is a very powerful thing...everyone says light is the fastest thing in the universe, but this is not true because the darkness is already there, waiting...yet somehow there is also light...it's a great mystery. The darkness always is, but the light only is because of the will of something for it to be. That's all I need to know, to understand, I am who I am for a reason, and that though the darkness may lay in wait, so too will the light come rushing in and be the only thing to be remembered or revered.
Indigo, at the time it was. At the time i encountered him i was only 8 or 9 years old. But when i look back at it now i'm not scared of him. Now i'm more intrigued why he was there. The time period from which he came from doesn't bother me. I know we've all be born and reborn many times. We all have to go through things to learn from. Especially situations that you don't want to be in. I had one reading and the earliest lifetime she picked up from me was the 1400s. I was in England and for the longest time i thought it had something to do with vikings.... I was very wrong, it had more to do with the druids. Apparently i wasn't very nice in that lifetime. And the next couple of times i reincarnated i had to learn humility and how to be forgiving.... So possibly this is all setting me on a path to the enlightenment and understanding i'm seeking.....
 
Indigo, at the time it was. At the time i encountered him i was only 8 or 9 years old. But when i look back at it now i'm not scared of him. Now i'm more intrigued why he was there. The time period from which he came from doesn't bother me. I know we've all be born and reborn many times. We all have to go through things to learn from. Especially situations that you don't want to be in. I had one reading and the earliest lifetime she picked up from me was the 1400s. I was in England and for the longest time i thought it had something to do with vikings.... I was very wrong, it had more to do with the druids. Apparently i wasn't very nice in that lifetime. And the next couple of times i reincarnated i had to learn humility and how to be forgiving.... So possibly this is all setting me on a path to the enlightenment and understanding i'm seeking.....
Yes this sounds very karmic indeed.

Ironically you say this. I mention the person in the winter who was treating me like I was someone special, each time I saw him in the back of my mind it was in the dress of a Bishop from the Mideival period. I never shared this with him, but he told me that he'd had a past life regression where he was told that he was a Bishop in Italy and that he'd persecuted many women for witchcraft. I wondered if that led him to over compensate in this lifetime, making him vulnerable to being led or looking for a spiritual leader who was not Christian. He also was forced to live under a kind of Christian oppression, religious abuse situation in this lifetime. Karma is interesting indeed.
 
Yes this sounds very karmic indeed.

Ironically you say this. I mention the person in the winter who was treating me like I was someone special, each time I saw him in the back of my mind it was in the dress of a Bishop from the Mideival period. I never shared this with him, but he told me that he'd had a past life regression where he was told that he was a Bishop in Italy and that he'd persecuted many women for witchcraft. I wondered if that led him to over compensate in this lifetime, making him vulnerable to being led or looking for a spiritual leader who was not Christian. He also was forced to live under a kind of Christian oppression, religious abuse situation in this lifetime. Karma is interesting indeed.
Indigo, i never would have even thought of it being karmic. But when you said that i started thinking about it. That makes so much sense. I know i was told i was coming out of the builder soul group. And i was supposed to go back into a ruler soul group. So that is what i'm working on now in this lifetime. Although i learned i was fragmented in 3 past lives she had to clear up for me. Also it ties into my ex as well. We were together in a past life, not sure what lesson i'm supposed to learn from us finding each other again, and then she ended the relationship after 5 years. That may tie into the karmic theory. But i guess i'll have to figure that out. That time period you are speaking of with the bishop was brutally violent. Just about everyone was oppressed. So possibly he didn't want to do what he had to do. It sounds like he is trying to make amends for what happened so many life times ago. We may not remember but the soul does.....
 
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Also it ties into my ex as well. We were together in a past life, not sure what lesson i'm supposed to learn from us finding each other again, and then she ended the relationship after 5 years. That may tie into the karmic theory.

I dreamed of my husband when I was 16. I knew exactly what he was doing what his home life was who his parents and siblings were and where he lived. I found him at college when I was 19. I was engaged at 20, and married at 22. When we saw one another we recognized each other instantly- our eyes locked & that was that. We were together before in another lifetime that I've been shown in my dreams, we roamed Scotland as Vikings, but in our past life we fought together as comrades & had an intensely competitive and turbulent relationship. It's the same now, we are competitive and we are still fighting with our backs together against all those who'd wish to see us fail. I think we were put together again to learn how to be a little nicer to one another in this lifetime, so that we don't have the regrets we had when we lost one another in the last lifetime. We also are together to learn how to forgive and forget. A lot of my weaknesses are my husbands strengths, and his weaknesses my strengths. We balance nicely, if we let ourselves, and aren't pig headed. Which we both are stubborn as all hell lol.
 
I dreamed of my husband when I was 16. I knew exactly what he was doing what his home life was who his parents and siblings were and where he lived. I found him at college when I was 19. I was engaged at 20, and married at 22. When we saw one another we recognized each other instantly- our eyes locked & that was that. We were together before in another lifetime that I've been shown in my dreams, we roamed Scotland as Vikings, but in our past life we fought together as comrades & had an intensely competitive and turbulent relationship. It's the same now, we are competitive and we are still fighting with our backs together against all those who'd wish to see us fail. I think we were put together again to learn how to be a little nicer to one another in this lifetime, so that we don't have the regrets we had when we lost one another in the last lifetime. We also are together to learn how to forgive and forget. A lot of my weaknesses are my husbands strengths, and his weaknesses my strengths. We balance nicely, if we let ourselves, and aren't pig headed. Which we both are stubborn as all hell lol.
 
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I dreamed of my husband when I was 16. I knew exactly what he was doing what his home life was who his parents and siblings were and where he lived. I found him at college when I was 19. I was engaged at 20, and married at 22. When we saw one another we recognized each other instantly- our eyes locked & that was that. We were together before in another lifetime that I've been shown in my dreams, we roamed Scotland as Vikings, but in our past life we fought together as comrades & had an intensely competitive and turbulent relationship. It's the same now, we are competitive and we are still fighting with our backs together against all those who'd wish to see us fail. I think we were put together again to learn how to be a little nicer to one another in this lifetime, so that we don't have the regrets we had when we lost one another in the last lifetime. We also are together to learn how to forgive and forget. A lot of my weaknesses are my husbands strengths, and his weaknesses my strengths. We balance nicely, if we let ourselves, and aren't pig headed. Which we both are stubborn as all hell lol.
Indigo, it must have been nice to reconnect with him. And get another chance to go through this lifetime with him. And work on the things that you've got to work on. It sounds like you balance each other out nicely. Usually it happens like that ;). Regrets are sometimes the hardest things to work through. Especially if you can't allow yourself to get past them, like being stubborn lol. My ex and i were like that as well, it was pretty much a us against the world type deal. When we reconnected she was getting out of a abusive marriage. I knew her from school, anyway the marriage was very bad physical and psycological abuse as well as sexual abuse. I use to gig every weekend since i was 16. The band i was playing in got fairly big. We opened up for a lot of national and international acts. When she was seperated from her husband she was seeing the guy that did our photo shoot. I'm sitting here looking at her saying damn i know i know her lol. She sent me a message on facebook a day or two later. And after that we didn't leave each others side until she wanted something different in her life. After a 5 year relationship and knowing her since i was 16 and then reconnecting at 32 she dropped me and never looked back. I must say though, we never fought, never yelled at each other. We were supposed to get married last year i guess she didn't like the thought of that anymore lol.
 
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Indigo, it must have been nice to reconnect with him. And get another chance to go through this lifetime with him. And work on the things that you've got to work on. It sounds like you balance each other out nicely. Usually it happens like that ;). Regrets are sometimes the hardest things to work through. Especially if you can't allow yourself to get past them, like being stubborn lol. My ex and i were like that as well, it was pretty much a us against the world type deal. When we reconnected she was getting out of a abusive marriage. I knew her from school, anyway the marriage was very bad physical and psycological abuse as well as sexual abuse. I use to gig every weekend since i was 16. The band i was playing in got fairly big. We opened up for a lot of national and international acts. When she was seperated from her husband she was seeing the guy that did our photo shoot. I'm sitting here looking at her saying damn i know i know her lol. She sent me a message on facebook a day or two later. And after that we didn't leave each others side until she wanted something different in her life. After a 5 year relationship and knowing her since i was 16 and then reconnecting at 32 she dropped me and never looked back. I must say though, we never fought, never yelled at each other. We were supposed to get married last year i guess she didn't like the thought of that anymore lol.
Sometimes I have read and heard, that our 'soul contracts' aren't always positive ones. Still there is something there to learn...I think unfortunately you could have been experiencing this kind of soul contract with your ex. You might have said you'd find her, and she might have promised to allow herself to be found, but then realized she wasn't going to keep good on anything more after she'd been found. Hopefully the contract is broken now, for both your sakes, so you each can move on into a more positive circle of souls that better suits you each.

No one has ever confirmed this for me, but I suspect I've got this kind of contract with my mother. I remember laying in bed as a little girl thinking she couldn't possibly be my mother, a 3 year old doesn't think those things. I'd also dream of her but that she'd be my mean sister rather than mother. Still to this day that is how I think of her. And, in this lifetime that really is kind of what she is, since I was also reared 60% by my grandparents. I'm really like my grandma's 'change of life baby' & my uncle and mother treat me like I'm the baby, and are very jealous & my grandparents have told me that I'm more of a daughter to them. But no one fills a child's head with this talk. So I can't tell if being abandoned as a newborn until I was 2, programmed the idea she wasn't my mother but my sister into my head, or if it was like that before and repeats again to both of our displeasure. I think the later, because her evil runs deep & has no good explanation- and her connection with me was broken from the time of my conception- so it's not 'personal' it just always was, if that makes sense? She's very different with my brother, better & connected to him so much that he's 25 & able bodied and still lives at home and acts like he's 12 because she babies him so.

These soul contracts affect our spirit guide connections as well, as if you go back to the beginning of this thread, I explain how my 1600s guide & myself were drawn back together.