Shanice i think you can take control of your situation with your faith in God. You don’t have to preform magic or spells. It’s your faith and intentions that have the power. This activates your connection to God. Pray god puts a hedge of protection over you and your son. Have faith in your prayers. You may even want to write down your petitions in a log book. When you have doubt put your hand on your petitions and remind yourself that God has answered your prayers. Sometimes you have to pray till you get a break through. You have to use the faith you have.
Lynne, I keep praying every day, since 2002, for about an hour, but thing got worse , every time worse than the last time. Nasty things kept happening, belive me, l lost my force phisically. I have to stop cleaning any 10 minutes to recover my force, l have no help at all, and do all the work I could laying in bed. Besides, everybody here hates me, first because l am romanian (they called me who..e and gipsy and thief) , then, when they got to know me better hated me more because they feel bad about not having right about me. I am a nice person, but unfortunately just to perfect to be real. What should I do?! Kill myself to make all happy, including my horendous mother?!
You know, when we judge a person, we judge using ourselves as reference. Gossip, unworthy people would always immagine and judge me, thinking at what they would do and be in my place. I can't fight with that. I cannot go out and educate 70 years old people, with no brain; NOR stop them to ruin my reputation by inventing things about me. And there is no way to have justice because they are relatives, and corrupt and have blood relatives as judges and lawyers. The chief of pollice here it's a drugdealer connected with Ndranghetta , the calabrese mafia.
Do you want more info ?! You have to belive me, here is much worse then what you see in Hollywood movies.
I didn't lost faith in God, but l only feel like He couldn't care less. Is not For my sake l am complaining now, but seeing the life of my son going in pieces. I agree carring my cross, but this is too much and l am losing the battle.