Yeah, I'm okay with it as long as it doesn't do what it used to. I think he wants recognition & is happy at that. Though lately I've had odd dreams about him which is I guess his only way of communicating with me. My wife doesn't get scared of him, he's sort of become part of the furniture & visits occasionally. I've been trying to keep my emotions in check & making positive changes around the house. Clearing it up, trying to relax more etc. Just trying to fill it with good things & nice feelings as opposed to negativity & letting it get to me.
I had one dream last night where I was in his position. I drowned & tried to carry the body of a drowned man across a body of water. Except when I was found nobody could see me & they couldn't hear me. Eventually I watched as these people dragged my own body out of the water but it still didn't register I was dead. I walked around afraid most of the dream because nobody could hear me but this one person. That & when I did get noticed by something being knocked over I realised how much it scared people. When I woke up, I felt like something was leaving the room. It might've been just a dream but I feel like he was trying to communicate what it was like for him.
I went back to sleep & at one point I was just asleep in the same room I was in. I sat up & everything went utterly black & I heard this high pitch roar in my ear that made the side of my head hurt. I could feel this dark shape roaring against my ear. When I woke up to realise the electrics had gone off so I switched it on again & it took me about an hour to get my heart to stop racing.
You see... it'll be quiet for ages then stuff like that happens all at once. Lights still flicker & occasionally I'll see orbs or shapes but they're few & far between unlike when I first wrote in. I'm getting some church candles for my birthday as they remind me of my childhood. They're blessed by a priest I know. Maybe that'll help?
I had one dream last night where I was in his position. I drowned & tried to carry the body of a drowned man across a body of water. Except when I was found nobody could see me & they couldn't hear me. Eventually I watched as these people dragged my own body out of the water but it still didn't register I was dead. I walked around afraid most of the dream because nobody could hear me but this one person. That & when I did get noticed by something being knocked over I realised how much it scared people. When I woke up, I felt like something was leaving the room. It might've been just a dream but I feel like he was trying to communicate what it was like for him.
I went back to sleep & at one point I was just asleep in the same room I was in. I sat up & everything went utterly black & I heard this high pitch roar in my ear that made the side of my head hurt. I could feel this dark shape roaring against my ear. When I woke up to realise the electrics had gone off so I switched it on again & it took me about an hour to get my heart to stop racing.
You see... it'll be quiet for ages then stuff like that happens all at once. Lights still flicker & occasionally I'll see orbs or shapes but they're few & far between unlike when I first wrote in. I'm getting some church candles for my birthday as they remind me of my childhood. They're blessed by a priest I know. Maybe that'll help?